Take me to your heart

It’s 401am… nothing better to do besides crapping and watching some vcd… been watching a game show from Hong Kong… the pain on my head is like something gonna explode and I don’t feel good at all… sigh…

Hmm Pat’s birthday is coming… is on 18^th January… anyway still early to wish him happy birthday :)

7^th January is Blue’s birthday and I got to know 3 hours before her birthday ends… anyway Happy belated birthday blue… :)

I felt and I know what you are thinking... Thanks for all the nice words, nice stories, nice mails, and nice songs and of coz nice advice :) hope out friendship will not last…

There are few links in my blog that I would like to share with you guys… feel free to drop by the sites and some mesgs for them…

Hmmm I think is time for me to off my light and get some sleep soon… wishing so much I am with him soon…

Take Me To Your Heart

(Music:Jacky Zhang/Words: Jascha Richter)

Hiding from the rain and snow

Trying to forget but I won't let go

Looking at a crowded street

Listening to my own heart beat

So many people all around the world

Tell me where do I find someone like you girl

(Chorus)

Take me to your heart take me to your soul

Give me your hand before I'm old

Show me what love is - haven't got a clue

Show me that wonders can be true

They say nothing lasts forever

We're only here today

Love is now or never

Bring me far away

Take me to your heart take me to your soul

Give me your hand and hold me

Show me what love is - be my guiding star

It's easy take me to your heart

Standing on a mountain high

Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky

I should go and see some friends

But they don't really comprehend

Don't need too much talking without saying anything

All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing

(Chorus)

*get the girl change to boy and it would be the song that I want to share with him* nitez… miss u… *good night kiss for him*

Having terrible headache

Hmmm… having a terrible headache now… got myself rests a while just now for 2 hours 16 mins and 12 secs… lol… you must be wondering why am I counting right? Lol… I am not counting at all as it appears in my script… hur hur…

I sensed something not right to my head… it is like unusual pain… :s… maybe is just lack of sleep for this whole week…

My housemates are having house conflict… :s… Rica been complaining about Mark and Mark had been complaining about Rica, Laco had been complaining about Chris… everyone just knocks on my door on different time to complain… I am getting frustrated… what to do with me? Why can’t they just spent time to talk to each other face to face?... damn is a bit annoying.. I hate to be middle person :s…

Try to do lots of things but I am feeling weak... I don’t know why :s… today is a cold weather too… is raining and windy… my fingers are freezing now… hoping so much to talk to him… hoping so much to hug him now…

I’ve cook some pasta for Jason and he just left my place as I am not feeling well… he is not working tomorrow and he asked if I will go out with him tomorrow… I didn’t answer him as I am not sure if I am able to go out with him tomorrow…

I’ve found out the person who left me the comment :)… yes that person is blue… I don’t know why she did not use her name and using anonymous lol.. Anyway thanks blue... Thanks for your advices and comment…

Will get myself to watch some VCD later… I don’t wanna continue my web thingy… I think I need to rest today… just replied some messages I’ve got in friendster… hmmm… they had change the layout and I am not used to it :s… will take sometimes to suit it tho…

My sister had call me a minute ago… she is unhappy, she had a big fight with her boyfriend… sigh… another love case :S… I just listen to her and I told her I am not feeling well as the reason to hang up the phone… I am not in the mood of talking…

Yes I am happy today but in the same time I am feeling weak… :S… when I see Rica being so mushy with her boyfriend I feel like being mushy with him as well… I miss the moment we call each other baby… I miss the time we had fun… signing off now…

About today

Been busy since I woke up today… having a bad headache now… i am happy of friends treating me like a princess… yes... they please me and try to be good with me most of the time… thanks a lot…

Tired of chatting, that idiot never give up to piss me off… anyway, I am not going to talk about him since everyone in the chat room been making fun of him and talking bad about him… sigh… what is he thinking actually?

Hmm who is the anonymous person who typed me the comment? Please do let me know :) I don’t simply let people come to surf on my blog as it is a bit personal to me… so I wish to know who that is :)

Finally I knew that he is browsing my blog, knew that I’ve misunderstood him

and knew that he also kan cheung I misunderstand him, yes I am happy for that, but I would like to apologize for the misunderstanding…

been using LFC and Nick been using TPM to making fun of chatters… feeling a bit tired of that, well, maybe I am feeling sleepy…. But I did enjoy :)

hmm… the whole server been flood with all the vhost… wonder why is there so many vhost to be change by the chatters… anyway I guess that is none of my business…

Jason is coming over again in short while… he is on his way to my place… I am a bit tired of entertaining people :s… anyway I’ve got a first time chatting on phone with Joey for 1 hour and 13 minutes :) he just broke up with his girlfriend and he is a bit down… I got nothing better to advice him besides being his ears…

I am feeling very full now but I feel like eating again… :x… I had ham cheese and tomato sandwich, I had smoke salmon and cucumber sandwich and I had sausage roll… that is the most fattening meal I ever had in the pass 1 month…

Will be getting myself some pasta soon… and will have some yogurt for dinner… anyway I am getting a bit better as I am not vomiting today :P….

Okie enough for now, will be back later at night if there is anything to trash out…

You have make my day

Yes!!!! What am I feeling now? Happy!!!.... Even though I am happy but I just can’t stop my tears… this time the tears fell on my face because of happiness but not for sadness…

Went through a really stupid and tired night… been crapping here and there with everyone… and I went to the beach for morning walk at 715am… came back around 930am, finally I’ve got myself rest for more than 4 hours…

Anyway thanks nick koko for sending me few songs… i had repeated those songs since last night… they are Jay chow – Gui Ji, Fir – wo men de ai, SHE – wo ai ni, Sun Yan zi – wo de ai, 5566 – yin wei ai and Melody – ai duo shao zhao zhi dao… poor u… lol… last night stay up so late and feeling sleepy now? Lol… anyway my bad :S… I am not suppose to drag u till so late… sorry…

Woke up around 147pm… then Carol, Hota, and Melita was here… we were having some nice chat… they had their lunch and I don’t have my meal yet :S…. then Hota and Melita left, so Carol came into my room to have some chat… out of sudden I got this mesg from him…

hey..dun so sensitive la! i replied u yesterday lar! u asked me twice.. i replied twice! i said sygate! yes!

Yes that is a mesg that he send to me while I was online in my busy mode… the nick that I was using at that time was MunMun - i guess he doesn't want to talk to me anymore...

The very first mesg had made my day… I am feeling excited, happy and my heart beats very fast… the feeling is like first time falling in love… after that, I told him I had nightmare and I asked if he read my blog for once only… but he replied he read it every now and then….

Hmm… talking about nightmare I have to type it out since I still remember about it… :s… I heard people said when u tell out the dream of wishes it will not come true… and so I got to tell out… so it will not come true…

My nightmare is about him… he had come to me but he introduce someone to me… yes his new girlfriend… I can’t remember exactly what happened after that, but I know I keep crying and I run away and just keep running… I don’t really remember where I run to and where am I in the dream… but is just keep running and out of sudden I feel like flying and floating on the air….

And that is about my dream… hmmm… was crying when I woke up but I feel a lot better now :P… okie I got to go and grab some food now… cheers…. Say cheeeezeeeee :P

Oh ya before I forgot the first link in my blog is to his webby… cool webby and nice design… do surf on it to have a look… :P leave him some mesg too… if possible sign up his guest book too lol… I sound a bit demanding huh? Anyway he put lots of effort in designing that cool layout :P

I am sad

A blog again… thanks for all the supports form all my friends… I messaged him today and ask about the firewall but he didn’t reply me at all… I guess he don’t wanna reply me anymore :)…

Been learning the software to upload pictures in my blog and I realized that is not as perfect as I think :) but at least I’ve learned something new…

Been crapping with some chatter over the net… I am tired of making fun of people… that is just part of the thing I can do to make me stop thinking about him and make me busy…

I realized I know some people who love to read my blogs and my testimonials in my friendster… I mean they had been spending their time in reading everything… well thanks again for all of them who read the whole thing here :)…

Besides learning how to upload the pictures, I learn something new in coding in my templates as well… anyway… I promise I will upload my pictures after I gone through my weight gaining programs :)

I don’t like to be over protected by guys… so whoever is here reading my blog, I think you should know who you are… please do not over protect me… I will feel breathless… I am more than happy to protect by someone I love… but someone I love not even want to answer me…

He had been online in his MSN in his working hour as well as whole night… he had been chatting with some friends a lot… sigh… anyway wish him all the best…

I feel so sore... I mean my heart… anyway I feel like stopping here… I feel like crying out so I can feel better…

Forget Vs Memory

Give me some comment please

Yay!!! Finally!!! Hmmm… even though the outcome is not really what I want, but I’ve learn something new today, besides I got myself occupied today… will check out any new features for this blog…

Well well… I am just trying to learn more things from the internet and making myself busy so I will not be too free to think nonsense again :P….

Thanks for viewing my blog do leave me some comments on how u think about the new thing I’ve learned today :)

Arigatou, xie xie, terima kasih, thank you, danke, tuo jie, kam siah…

Live Today

Money

Trust

Value

Don't Hurt anyone

Marriage

Always on my mind

Maybe I didn't love you quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didn't hold you quite as often as I could have
Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Maybe I didn't hold you all those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine
If I made you feel second best
I'm sorry, I was blind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasn't died
Give me, give me one more chance to keep you satisfied

* I would like to dedicate this song specially for KY a.k.a Ian... yes this is a song I would like to dedicate for you.... I wish I would have another chance...

All about loving you

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know I've made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes

*Every time I look at you, baby
I see something new
That takes me higher than before
and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight
Dreaming's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been coming to
I'm all about loving you

I've lived, I've loved, I've lost
I've paid some dues, baby
We've been to hell and back again
Through it all you're always my best friend
For all the words I didn't say and all the things I didn't do
Tonight I'm gonna find a way (*)

You can take this world away
You're everything I am
Just read the lines upon my face
I'm all about loving you

All about loving you

when I heard Jason sing this song, I was stoned... yes I think of him again... this is one of the song I used to shared with him... I remember there was once Shen Yee was at his place and they actually waiting me finish hosting for Ian... and here U go... one of the memory between me and him :)

A shoulder to cry on

Life is full of lots of up and downs
And the distance feels further
When you're headed for the ground
And there is nothing more painful
Then to let your feelings take you down

It's so hard to know the way you feel inside
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide
But you might feel better
If you let me walk with you by your side

*And when you need a shoulder to cry on
When you need a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there

All of the times when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like there's no use going on
You can't give it up
I hope you work it out and carry on

Side by side with you till the end
I'll alway be the one to firmly hold your hand
No matter what is said or done
Our love will always continue on

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
Everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one you rely on
When the whole world's gone
You won't be alone cause I'll be there

And when the whole world is gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on....

this is a song that Jason just sing for me... well.. I know what he is thinking... but people who are not mean to be together then is hard to be together... time will prove it.. anyway thanks Jason....

A cold summer

This summer is not hot as the last summer, this is the second month of summer… today the weather is very cold, windy and raining as well… lucky I’ve got one jacket with me here if not I will be freezing…

Got myself some work to do like learning something to add on in this blog… failed to get what I want but I will not give up and I will try again later…

Just got myself some boiled sausages with bread, going to hand dry my clothes at the backyard soon… feeling a bit better because me and Jason not feeling that awkward… he came to my house after work… and he is still here…

Anyway he asked me why I am rejecting him… I went silent but at the end I answered him as well… I showed him Ian’s pictures and at least he knows who he lose to… he told me that he will wait till the day I answer ‘yes’ to him… silly….

Just got to know a cute handsome guy name Joey as well :), he is 19 years old and he was born in Melbourne… hmm… what else I know about him? Lol… I need time to tell this… I don’t really know him well yet as I just got to know him from Serena…

My neck is sore now… maybe I am not enough sleep… I think I will get myself some sleeping pills tonight in order for me to get some nice sleep…

Going to have a party in tomorrow night… what is the purpose of the party? I don’t know, but just a notice from Laco saying they will have a party tomorrow and they had bought lots of food and the whole fridge is full!!!

Laco is facing lots of pressure from his studies… he said the course had getting tougher and he is worry that he would fail in this semester so he decided to quit the job so he can concentrate in his studies…

Thanks gor for the code to add u in as a link in my blog… and for those who don’t know who is Regis, he is one of my pet brother... He had a same surname with me :P… anyway if you guys interest to let your link appear in my blog, kindly give me the source and I will add it in my blog… :).. Please be prepared that if your link appears in my blog, my friends will surf on your site as well lol…

Women in love

Life is a moment in space

When the dream is gone It's a lonelier place

I Kiss the morning goodbye

But down inside you know we never know why

The road is narrow and long When eyes meet eyes

And the feeling is strong I turn away from the wall

I stumble and fall But I give you it all

I am a woman in love

And I do anything to get you into my world 

And hold you within It's a right

I defend over and over again

What do I do With you eternally mine

In love there is no measure of time

We planned it all at the start

That you and I would live in each other's hearts

We may be oceans away

You feel my love I hear what you say

No truth is ever a lie I stumble and fall

But I give you it all

I am a woman in love And

I'm talking to you I know how it feels

What a woman can do It's a right

I defend over and over again 





I am in love with the oxygen....

Friends

Okay, first of all thank you for viewing my blog… hur hur afer 50 over blogs I’ve post now only I said that huh? Sorry guys… anyway I really appreciate you guys to read my blog… I am happy because some of you read my blog everyday :)

Today there are 3 idiots in the morning scolding and cursing all chatters in the chat room and they got banned by me because of that… hmmm some of the #hitz.fm had joined #my.fm because of the idiot’s stupidity show… :x

I went to the kitchen and everyone is at home… Chris saw me walking to the kitchen and he went to the ‘bar’ table opposite the sink to chat with me… I don’t know why I had lost my patience in talking to him... Being harsh to him…

Then Laco came out from his room as well… when he talked to me I was a bit cold and he asked me if I am moody… see? I think I need a boyfriend that can sense my feelings… like ‘him’… he sensed my feelings from how I chat with him…

Jason just gave me a call… I try my best to chat with him like friend… I think I got to act like nothing happened last night…

One of my buddy from Brisbane had went back to Malaysia last night :s… he is one of the buddy who always came down to Melbourne and look for me one… hmm I am still waiting for the parcel from him…

I need more girl friends…. Damn why am I surrounded with all the guys’ friends? :S… anyway I had confused people by using the nick `dunno… why am I using that nick? Because nick koko asked me about my feelings and I answered don’t know so he reckons I should use the nick…

I’ve regret to reject the first job offer from Hyatt Hotel… :s.. Anyway I’ve lost the job from the second interview… hmmm what else I wanna type? Can’t think of anything now… be back later to type again… ciaoz and have a nice day…

Nonsense again

Just got myself sometimes here to blog again… I am not working today, feeling sick and tired… I think I need some rest soon…

Not really in a good mood and so I don’t really chatted last night, well thanks Eric for the message you left for me, I read it when I come to my computer this morning… sometimes things are not like how you think :) no matter what thanks for your concern… and finally you got to online to IRC :)

I.Need.ur.Care.Concern.n.Love, love.u.for.the.rest.of.time and I.am.Who.I.am are the vhost I used today… well they suits my feelings… so I used it… anyway how I wish I am just a Hard disk which I can press the format button and got everything formatted :)

He is online at the moment and this is his working hour… there is no reply or anything from him… guesses he is not reading my blog… I might be thinking nonsense again, but sometimes if I think that way it would be better for me to stay away from him…

Got myself eating swallow fried beef with spring onions and ginger… that is one of his favorite dish… anyway I promised I will cook to the best and cook for him if there is a chance… and I never forget this promise…

One of my friends asks me what would I like to tall him or says to him when I first see him? Well… I would not know until I got to see him… anyway this is just a question that I will answer with don’t know…

Not chatting since last night, got myself finish knitting a scarf… hmmm that is a one of the present that I wish to pass to him, no matter he is going to a cold place or not I hope he will keep it…

Okay I will be back to trash something from my mind later as I want to clean the kitchen and get myself out of facing the computer, I don’t want to get a poor skin because of the radiation form my computer screen…

I miss you

My fingers are hurt, I am wearing artificial nails… this is the second time I am wearing it… the first time I wear it was 01 September 2004… I am supposed to attend a wedding dinner, but I failed to attend the dinner because of some incident. The incident made me stay at home and that incident had given me and him a good start…

That is the first day I started this relationship with him… that is a day where I went for class and I came home with the heart missing him… we sms each other for the whole day… that is the day where I asked him if he missed me in the sms… but he refused to tell me… as usual, he came online when he was home from work… I told him I am not able to attend the wedding dinner because my door lock got broken…

I was rushing home and trying to get a quick shower and was getting prepare to attend for the dinner, but I got my keys and every lock in the room without knowing it until I came out from the shower… my housemate had break the door in for me and my door lock was spoiled…

I told him I am not going to the wedding and I was moody, I’ve got myself prepared and bought myself some new cosmetics for the wedding but I was failed to attend that wedding… he try to comfort me and make some jokes to make me laugh… I realized I fall into him… that time I told him I don’t wanna chat much with him and I used quit MunKY gang in my MSN nick… MunKY is actually stood for me and him… Mun is my last name and KY stand for his name…

I’ve told him I am worry that I will fall in love with him so I rather stop that before I drop into the ‘love’… and I say is hurt that I love that person and he doesn’t love me… but he told me what he felt on me… and he said he wanna go for me… and he asked me… I didn’t answer his question in MSN because I wanna answer him on the phone… I called him and the first thing I said is ‘yes’… he asked what is the yes for and I’ve told him yes for him question… and so there goes the first day with him…

Before I continue this blog I would like to wish Ken Happy Birthday… sorry I didn’t know and sorry for this late wish… may your wishes come true…

There are 2 guys confessed to me today, one of them confessed in real and the other one confessed on the internet… the one who confessed in real is Jason, he is one of my friend that I knew him from my friend in my birthday… been went out with him for lunch for 2 times… he is quite a gentleman and nice guy, handsome and tall, he called me today and he asked me out, it was 1212am, I got myself changed and went out with him… when I see him outside my house he asked me if I wanna go for a drink or go to the beach, I feel like taking some fresh air and have a short walk and so I suggested to go to the beach… when we walked to the beach he was acting normal… 5 minutes after we reach the beach he asked me if I want to be his girlfriend… I was really shock and I went quiet, I don’t dare to look at him, I am thinking so hard to reject him in a proper way…

I was shivering and feeling not well… and finally I told him is good to be friends than boyfriend, I am not ready for any relationship… he changed topic immediately… and I feel a bit better… but I left not more than 10 minutes… he walked me home…

I realized I am a girl who needs lots of protection… I feel better when I came home with a company of a friend… I used to walk alone and I feel scared and insecure…

I didn’t turn back or I didn’t even look at his face ever since he asked me to be his girlfriend… once I reach home I run in and close the door immediately… he called me and asked me if we are still friend, I said of course and I asked to hang up because I don’t know what to say….

I’ve changed my MSN nick that start with MunMun… and someone had changed his nick to I love MunMun… he is a chatter from #my.fm, at first he told me he put the nick for fun, but after that he told me that he likes me, he confessed to me immediately… I was like gone blank straight away… I just reach home and I just on my computer… and so fast?... I told him I was busy and he said he give me time to think about it… seriously... I am not into any relationship until I prove to him and until he rejects me when I am back to Malaysia…

Feeling horrible now… sigh… anyway I am having terrible headache and I need some rest… may I have a nice day… my chest is pain and I felt weak… sigh… tell me am I suppose to let u go out from my mind? If u happens to see this blog… please answer me in your MSN nick or email me…

It is so hard to tell someone you miss them without letting them know

I got a sudden feel he is not mine and he would not be mine anymore… I don’t know why am I feeling this way but is just a feeling… I am not having anyone else in my mind... and no matter what song I listen the whole mind of mine is him and only him…

Went to see doctor, and got myself some vitamins, weight gaining powder… and had some chat with the doctor… he asked me not to stress myself, have enough rest as well as a normal meal will do…

Never been sleeping the whole night again… I’ve got insomnia, can’t get to sleep I have no idea what is happening… went to work in 730am… was in the office and reading some novels, then help out at the counter to handle some cash then went to see doctor, after that I went to the bank to deposit some money and so there goes my activity outside my house…

When I come home I’ve got a cold shower, then got myself some light food and had my medicine… got flu and sore throat… then came online… been checking mails, disturbing some friends, check my blog, check forum, replied all messaged in friendster and been playing game a while…

Been sharing some recipes with some friends and my friend’s mum… the whole house housemates been learning cooking form me and most of them improved their cooking skills… well is really happy when you see them able to cook something better for themselves… the feeling is like you have plant some plants from a seed and grow to a tree :)…

Been chatting with nick and found he is really a good friend and good boyfriend… well… don’t worry I am not falling in love with him… but he is really a good friend :).. Looking forward to maintain this friendster as long as I can….

My sister called me and she is coming over for holiday soon, she said she is unhappy to stay at home… the husband of my mum had force my both sisters to had dinner everyday at home at 7pm, after that hour there is no food left… I wonder how could my mum letting him to make such rule in the house…

People asked me why am I logging in to IRC?... I’ve answered them because I wanted to know friends besides that seeing people chat, from what people chat you can see lots of things… sometimes human are weird… they tried to do lots of things to hurt themselves, but at the end there are only wounds and pain left to themselves…

I’ve regret of what I had done to hurt myself after the operation, but I am trying to control all the foods and drinks to let it cured… looking forward to go for a holiday soon… feel like going to a snowing place… and feel like going the trip alone…

I am typing in this blog is not to telling people how much I miss him or anything… this is just a blog for me to express myself, so I can be healthier… before I broke up with him, I got his ears for me, I can call him everyday before I sleep… I am still missing those moments and I can’t really sleep well without chatting with him… maybe I am taking this blog to replace him… typing here is like telling him what had I been doing the whole day…

Before this, he had come online as much as he can in his office hour… I love to see him online and I love to chat with him most of the time… even though sometimes I am not telling him what I am thinking but at least I love to be pampered by him…

He is like a big baby too… but I am not a good ‘nanny’… anyway memory is good to think when you are alone, but is bad to think when you had been missing too much… enough for now… wishing to see him soon… no matter he will want me or not I will want to see him, I am ready for the worst :)… leave it to fate… leave it to love… leave it to god…

Something else to trash tonight

Feel like sending him the song ‘journey’, I don’t even said a word to him and I just click the file and wait for him to accept it…was in busy mode and I changed to be right back as I was away from my pc…

When I back from away, the song was loading… and my heart is ‘pumping’ as well… not really feeling well... maybe I had been drinking too much coke… feeling pain yet I am feeling alright…

Was pity for a stupid idiot in IRC… this is the one from yesterday... he read through all my testimonials… and he said he wanna be my boyfriend lol… besides that he being flooded by people lol… well... I am not involved in this incident but just sit and answer all his stupid questions while watching him facing a ‘disaster’… do I sound bad? I think I am feeling a bit bad… but this is what he deserved?

Wonder what he had been doing… is nick was online in his time 12am – 1am… and just set to away not long ago… hope he will sleep early as he might be working tomorrow… after he received the song I had send him the lyrics as well… he didn’t even said a single word and I don’t even ask anything or say a single word… feeling awkward and weird.. This is a first time I had such communication…. I had lots of ‘first’ time with him…

Sigh… my gor had came to me and told me he wasn’t happy but I was not in the mood of being a MJ (Music Jockey), I don’t call myself DJ (Disc Jockey) because I am not playing disc in the disco, besides that, I don’t call myself a broadcaster because I am not working in any radio stations…

He told me he wasn’t happy with the current relationship… he had being with his girlfriend for 4 years, he felt that he had done a lot for his girlfriend and his girlfriend doesn’t seem like appreciate things he had done (hmm… ‘he’ used to complain me of not appreciated things he had done… maybe I am not good in appreciate to him… but seriously, I appreciate and I remember all of them…)…. I’ve told him not to measure how much he had done for her, but try to think how to love her more… sigh... I think I am not a good adviser for love… been through lots of failed relationships, who am I to advise people?

For me, love is something to show how we care, feel, protect, accommodate each others… yes, he used to said love is about how we accommodate each others… and he used that nick after we got argued… anyway, I am not a perfect one and I am just learning all the way.. May I grant a chance to learn and grow up :)

Something to share

Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile,
Because it takes only a smile to
Make a dark day seem bright.
Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Dream what you want to dream;
Go where you want to go;
Be what you want to be,
Because you have only one life
And one chance to do all the things
You want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet
Enough trials to make you strong,
Enough sorrow to keep you human and
Enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily
Have the best of everything;
They just make the most of
Everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always
Be based on a forgotten past;
You can't go forward in life until
You let go of your past failures and heartaches.

Don't count the year, count the memories...

My fourth day of 2005

Never been sleeping yet as I tried to get some sleep but I failed to do so because everyone keep knocking my door to wake me up, first I got a letter and so Chris knock on my door, then Rica want to borrow some movies and want to talk to me and so she knock on my door, and finally Laco knock on my door because he bought me the internet card…

What had I been doing the whole day? Been working in the morning, had a half day work, then came home at 1:30pm, when I came home I’ve got myself a quick shower and then I came online…

I came online check my blog, check friendster, check mails and then on IRC for parking, don’t really chat much today as I am pretty tired… was online till my time 630am last night and got myself prepared then go to work at 730am…

After I finished everything I went offline to cool myself down and trying to get some sleep but end up sitting in front of computer online again… these days I spend most of my time on blog, searching lyrics, friendster, some MSN chat as well as checking mails and forum…

I’ve got myself some cheese and butter cookies today.. besides that I’ve got myself Chinese mushroom and chicken soup noodles… that are all the foods I had been eating the whole day… finished up the whole can of cook quickly so I can burp faster… but after all I got vomited…

Today is a bad weather in Melbourne, been raining for the whole day… but some weird scene in my from my house is the left side is raining and the right side is cloudy… anyway there are lots of weird things in the world so nothing is special…

Anyway I’ve got a reply from him that his nick is not scolding me… so I think is nothing to do with me… got nothing much to type as sometimes lyrics are good enough to just express my feelings… logging of from my blog now…

Rainbow

Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high
There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

It's a long long Journey till I find my way home to you

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.to you

It's hard to see the pain behind the mask

Before I went offline to rest and get myself prepare to work, I leave him a message saying I am tired but I can’t sleep, been thinking of him I miss him…

He came online in his time 11++am and he got his nick changes to you like to think your sh!t, dun stank, but lean a lil closer, see roses really smell like whooohooo… I did ask him what’s with his nick but I got no respond from him…

I am trying to make myself occupied and concentrate in something else… but it seems like the mind of thinking of him is always stays in my mind… I can’t do anything about it…

I think offline and not thinking things will be good to me… I agreed with Nic’s words… there is always a door of happiness open for us, but we will never realized… even though we know we will still ‘pick a bone form the egg’….

Today is a very bad day, been through a bad morning, saw someone I am not suppose to see in the tram as he is one of the guy that I hate the most in this world… and I got a reply from the hotel I failed the interview… and I guess I have to make a decision now…

After all, I am just avoiding things… maybe I want to have a big break, but where am I supposed to go? What am I suppose to do? Sigh…

Never try never know, never know never pain, never pain never grow… finally I’ve been through all this… just send him a mail and asked him if he is scolding me in his nick… waiting for his reply and I think I need some sleep and some food…

I think I will never get out of this, hoping you will have the keys to my cells is the last mesg from me to him…. Gone for now…

Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone,
In a world that she can't rise above,
But her dreams give her wings,
And she flies to a place where she's loved,
Concrete angel.

Just a normal day

Today is just a normal day without anything happened to me, but ever since I broke up with him I had become a listener most of the time… normally I will be the one who talk most of the time but this had changed and I have no idea why…

Rica got argued with her Bf again… is just because of the small matter and she is complaining… I wonder why, but I am not qualified to ask too… used to argued with him because of the small matters too…

He said tongue piercing is disgusting… I think I will forget about the idea of doing the tongue piercing already… not going to do things he doesn’t like… I asked him if he still want the Ian this nick as this nick has dropped form his group nicks and he said don’t know… anyway, had ask him some questions about the server, missing him badly…

Chris had annoyed almost everyone… and everyone had complained about him to me… sigh... I don’t know what I can do, but just keep quiet and being myself will do… he had been using other’s things without permission and he thought that everyone should buy him things… sigh.. What a big baby in this house…

There is a chatter showing his ‘stupidity’ skills to people in the chat room… anyway he is being fool by everyone in the chat room…

Hmm… oh yah would like to thanks blue for the songs she send to me… first time spending sometimes to get the song files from the email.. Thanks a lot blue.. and would like to thanks Danish for all the emails thanks… hmm guess I got to thanks lot of people but no matter I mention your name or not I would like to thank whoever who read my blog here thanks a lot :)

A little bit update about my family… my sisters are not happy with my mum’s husband… well pardon me of not calling him ‘father’… I am not willing to call him that… he is one of the reasons that make me come back Australia after attending the wedding… well… I’ve kept some of my dad’s stuff into my room before I come back… I don’t wanna him to touch anything that belongs to my dad… both of my sisters been quiet to my mum since 29^th December… anyway not going to think about it, all I need is time to accept the fact…

Duc loves Malaysia and he is planning to go to Malaysia to work… but I’ve told him that is none of my business and please do not ask me anything about it…

Okay that’s all for tonight… needed to start doing something tomorrow :) good night my friends, sweet dreams… a good night kiss for him :)

Endless road

The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognize this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time

Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time I ask if this would be the last

Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this I think I never will

A crystal forming in the eye
Maybe this would be the last
The winding pathdown my face
Till I begin to taste the bitterness inside

If you happen to surf on my blog... this is a song I would like to dedicate to you, I think I never will get out of this... I am hoping so much you will have the keys to my cell... I miss you... KKY

Not pretty enough

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me

I live
I breathe
I let it rain on me
I sleep
I wake
I try hard not to break
I crave
I love
I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can

chorus

I laugh
I feel
I make believe it's real
I fall
I freeze
I pray down on my knees
I hope
I stand,
I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can

chorus

why do you see
why do you see
why do you see
why do you see right through me

hmm.. y am I posting this lyrics? It is just because I try as hard as I can :)

A song to share

Is kinda busy today… been doing lots of stuff since morning and got to come online in my time 3++pm… anyway I am here to share a song that makes me cry just now… thanks to Jason because he introduce this song and send me this song…

Besides that, would like to take this chance to thanks Eric gor for reading my blog and accompany me to crap last night thanks gor…

Okay here is the song to share

CONCRETE ANGEL
(Stephanie Bentley, Rob Crosby)

she walks to school with the lunch she packed,
Noboby knows what she's holdin' back,
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday,
She hides the bruises with linen and lace.

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask,
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask,
Bearing the burden of a secret storm,
Sometimes she wishes she was never born.

CHORUS:
Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone,
In a world that she can't rise above,
But her dreams give her wings,
And she flies to a place where she's loved,
Concrete angel.

Somebody cries in the middle of the night,
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights,
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate,
When morning comes it'll be too late.

REPEAT CHORUS

A statue stands in a shaded place,
An angel girl with an upturned face,
A name is written on a polished rock,
A broken heart that the world forgot.

REPEAT CHORUS

it is a sad song is about a girl being abused and no one did anything about it, and finally the girl had passed away… is a nice song… will be typing something later on… as I need to get myself some food… haven’t been eating since I woke up… ciaoz

Sleeping soon

A blog before I sleep… hmmm I wonder if I am siao lol… well well got to know some friends form friendster and we are making fun of each other in MSN…

I was just crapping the whole night... been crapping with Ken, Regis gor and Taurus :P… well well… I think I am fall in love with sailor moon… I don’t know why I loves sailor moon out of sudden… hmmm… will be buying some sailor moon product soon…

My time is 409am at the moment… I feel like shower…. But is very quiet out there… who is still awake now??

I think sometimes craps a lot help me to reduce my stress and stop thinking of nonsense one… hmmm nothing goes right today :s my ym facing some problems as well… well!!! I won’t be thinking of it… problems come to me now! :x

Anyway I think I’ve finish crapping… I am wondering and wanna get some idea of tongue piercing... anyone? Any comment? Hmmm… I am not trying to abuse my body or trying to be a bad girl… but just give a try… will be ignore the ear holes and left to normal.. One in each ear :P..

Okay enough for here now will be chatting in MSN as I am delaying to reply them… tata

You're always on my mind

I’ve lay on my bed without doing anything for the passed 2 hours… I was trying to get some sleep but I am not able to sleep at all… if I say I am not thinking anything that is just impossible…

Today I chatted with Shen Yee, Shen Yee is one of his buddy, we don’t really chatted about him, but I told Shen Yee that I used to sensed he got someone else… and Shen Yee told me no, Ian doesn’t has any GF at the moment and he always hang out with Shen Yee…

I miss him badly at the moment… I came online and I asked him a question: can I ask if u ever want me to disappear from ur life? And I got this answer from him:

ß t L ε J u î © ε :: Don't fall away and leave me to myself!! Don't fall away! And leave love bleeding in my hands! says:

har?

* ß t L ε J u î © ε :: Don't fall away and leave me to myself!! Don't fall away! And leave love bleeding in my hands! says:

why ask like that?

* ß t L ε J u î © ε :: Don't fall away and leave me to myself!! Don't fall away! And leave love bleeding in my hands! says:

i didnt do anything to u also

And I say: Pls answer me, and he replied

ß t L ε J u î © ε :: Don't fall away and leave me to myself!! Don't fall away! And leave love bleeding in my hands! says:

no?

I am supposed to be happy as we got to ‘chat’ again… and one thing is he is not avoiding after I send him the song… I’ve been repeating the song since yesterday… the whole song is just expressing me to him…

Finally I’ve asked him if he read my blog before… and he answered yea… I’ve finished 6 can of Coke… I don’t know why I just feel like drinking Coke… is been long time never drink Coke… I mean the one in can…

I’ve got a call from Mike (my ex bf) and I just got nothing much to say to him, he was trying to make me talk something but I don’t know what to talk with him… and finally we end up having 30 secs chat on the phone…

I am thinking to get a make up course… feel like improve my make up skills… I’ve learn from Sher Wei before but not really good yet… I just wish to get something to do before I gone crazy or stuck myself to think too much…

Having a bad headache now… after all I finally found out who are the one who care, concern, and love me… thanks a lot… oh yeah, I got the answer from him about his nick in MSN. He said that is a song he loves, his favorite… fuel – hemorage…

I think is better for me to stop here… I wonder if my blog bored u guys. Most of the people must be scolding while they reading my blog… why am I thinking of him again? And why is that him again? Hmm… I am just a human… sometimes love is just a miracle… maybe the uncle moon had tied a red string between us… and when he got drunk he changed it again?.... I know if I said that it might sound silly… but this is what I think of only… :x

Got a bad news from Chian where she said she is going to quit IRC because she can’t get along with the people in the chat room… she doesn’t seem alright, but I am not even alright to comfort her… sorry Chian… I know you will drop by here if you see this, please take care of yourself and do drop by the chat room when you are free….

My friends and cousins is planning to come over and visit me soon… they asked me for my availability… and hope they will be coming… miss them so much… Pat had cancelled his trip to Melbourne because he is rushing back to KL… Fai is coming over in Valentine’s Day and he said he wants to date me, and I think I will ask few friends to go with me instead of spending time alone with him… I am not going to date anyone at the moment… Fai is a nice guy, he is 29 years old, he will never forget any of the greetings in a year, pity him because whenever he tried to talk to me, I will give him a cold shoulder… I think there is gap between me and him…

Err… I am a bad daughter again, because I didn’t call home again… well, ever since I broke up with him I don’t chat on phone anymore… unless there is something important or something I really need to talk to… the most expensive phone bills I ever got is 1245 dollar… it went up that high because I used direct call services… well I guess that’s all for now…

Thank You very much

My heart can’t take it anymore… I need some rest…

I asked him how the song was and he said is nice… anyway I love the song and been repeating since yesterday…

I’ve put a sign at my door ‘please do not disturb’ and Chris is still keep knocking my door, finally he got scolded from me… I asked if he doesn’t understand do not disturb… he was really annoying and I don’t feel like seeing him at all…

What I’ve been doing the whole day? Been talking to Rica and her Bf, they asked me to go out but I am too tired to go out… anyway they swear a lot… I did swear a lot… but I swear when I am frustrated…

Everything had went wrong today, my comp, my life, friends, health, but one thing is still okay is I got a reply from him… at least he put a smile on my face…

I don’t know what am I thinking at the moment I got too much things to type in here but I am really tired… I need some rest now… good night my friends… thanks for all the messages, files, songs, and courage… and thanKs Shen Yee :)

Frustrated

Damn! My blog is in the mess now!!! Grrrr!!! I am so useless! Can’t even take care of my blog!!! Stupid!!! After 40++ blogs I realized that I can do some setting on the time zone…

So last night I’ve got my time zone changed… unfortunately I dunno what time zone they had come out today!!!! My time is only 256pm but the blog had come out the time as 956pm!!! Wtf! :S…

I am damn frustrated now! Anyway sorry for the inconvenience caused… I know some of u read my blog based on the date and time one :s… sorry :s….

after a few changes I think the blog went back to the normal date but not the normal time... Sorry for the inconvenience :s

Sick again

Yes, I am sick again... I went to see doctor just now. Doctor advice me to admit to hospital for further inspection. The fear of living in hospital is very strong… is not about ghost of spirit, but is about live and death…

When I had my operation last time I used to talk to some patient in the hospital, but am like very soon or anytime you will hear the news that they had passed away… I don’t know how to explain this feeling, even though I am not the close family or close friends to those patient, but they are my companion in the hospital… if I am being too sad, I will be saying silly, but if I don’t feel sad at all I felt horrible… arghh.. Is just a feeling…

Thanks Ah Nic for the testimonials… I’ve got it when I checked my friendster a while ago…

I was kinda enjoy last night… having the karaoke session with Sky jie jie, Jaja lp, Derr and SJ tou dai, Regis Gor, Wise, Blue, Eline, Bmboy, Evo and myself… 2 guitarists which are Sky jie jie and Jaja lp had present few songs to us… thanks a lot…

And that is what I did in the beginning of the second day in year 2005, got myself to bed in around 630am… besides entertaining myself, I’ve finally got my tag board in this blog done!!!... Thanks for leaving mesg in the tag board…

Do type something when you guys surf on this blog… just to know who is here to read… I guess if you don’t wanna let me know you are here to read… then please do not type anything here…

Feeling a bit drowsy at the moment… got some antibiotics and some medicine from the doctor today… the wound had caused the fever and I am not resting enough… besides that, I need plenty of water and food to gain some energy… my weight now is 35KG… :s… I am aiming to gain 10KG… wish me luck…

I received the most special gift from my friend (SzeBoon), he had bought me 30 can of coke, he told me that if I am feeling down, ask me to drink as much coke as I can, and burp out all of the problems… I will try out one day :P

There was once I watched a movie, the heroin in the movie will blow up a plastics bag when she is feeling unhappy and once she got the plastics bag blow up, she breaks the plastics bag… it is like squeezed all the problems into the plastics bag and burst it… :x…

Well another way that I heard from Melita is get a empty bottle and tell what is in your mind, then cover the lit so it will not ‘flow’ out… and I got few ways to settle the bottle, I can throw them in the rubbish bin so It will not follow me anymore, I can throw into the sea so the problem will flow away… I can buried under the bottle so when I got problem again I can take it out and tell the problems to the bottle again or I can display the bottle on a rack and finally do a quick reviews on those problems…

I guess telling out in the bottle won’t work for me… if not I will not be blogging here anymore :x… so forget about it… I will try out the coke method or the plastics bag method…

Okay, that’s it for now… will be blogging again if there is anything to trash out again… tata for now…

Never waste my time to wait

Tears are flowing from my eyes… yes, I am crying for nothing again… I am sending the song to him… was waiting for him to come home when he reach other is around 217am… (1117pm Malaysia time)

While sending him the song I am reviewing the lyrics again and I realized the last part is not belong to me and him anymore :s… May life be our love paradise… I am worried if he will not talk to me anymore because of this song… :s…

Still waiting for the song to finish and I will be resting… I think my wound causing the fever… will be seeing doctor on tomorrow… I am feeling pain and weak now… but I got to wait till the song finish…

I keep checking if he is back from msn… and finally once he changes his msn mode to online mode, I asked if he is there and he replied yes, and I asked if I can sent him a song, he asked me what song and I said love paradise by Kelly Chen, then he said okay.. And now I am sending him the song… do u know what is my feeling now?... I am feeling happy because is not wasted to wait till he is backing home and send him the song, I am feeling worried because I scared he will not talk to me anymore… I am feeling sad because I feel like we can’t share the song anymore… and I am feeling sick and tired now…

He may be in bad mood because Liverpool had lose to Chelsea… he is a Liverpool fans… and I guess he just back home from football or he might be going out soon to watch football match… well this is what I guess only as I never even asked him yet…

Sj asked if I awaiting any respond from him after the song or not… I replied no… I don’t expect anything from him… I am not qualified to expect anything from him anymore… and I hope he will keep the song because I believe he might like this song… anyway I should have prepare for the worst, that he might be delete the song because he doesn’t want me to express anything anymore? I don’t know everything leave it to him…

Transfer of "³¯¼zµY - Love Paradise.mp3" is complete.

Finally the song had transferred complete… time to bed now… I am listening to the song; hope he will like the song… good night…

Missing him so much… there is just a feeling that I can’t express by the words…

Jaja just told me this song been introduce by Sky jie jie one… she called Sky jie jie kyky… I used to call him kyky… I hope I will have a chance to call him kyky…

What's in my mind at the moment

Just got myself some watermelon and Milo snacks… I feel like crying at the moment… I’ve ask Jaja to sing the song with me… she sing one line and I sing another… and we’ve completed the whole song in #my.fm…

I am still waiting for him to come home and I wish to share the song with him… the whole song is just whatever I wish to express to him… he is always in my mind, all day and all the time…

I’m feeling sick and tired maybe I’ve been stayed up late for this few days… never been really rest well for the last December…

A quick review of the whole year of 2004… I’ve graduated in October 2004, I’ve quitted a underground radio from Dalnet… got to know lots of new friends… my kai gor had passed away in last year… been through few relationships in last year… the best memory with Violet and Kevin… been through some hard times in South Yarra while living with Meng… mum got married again… been through all the celebrations alone with friends for 3 years… my stupid computer been down for almost every month, finally the HDD spoilt in November :P and last but not least the most unforgettable memory is the 3 months relationship with Ian…

Basically those are the memories that I remember from year 2004, I’ve make the wish upon the stars… will keep all those wishes in the heart, because whenever u tell out the wish, it will not come true… will tell u all in end of 2005 whether my wishes come true or not

I’ve more and more prejudice to Chris… he is really annoying :s… today I’ve locked myself in the room for the whole day again… I don’t feel like talking or seeing anyone today… Duc had asked me to go out with him to a gathering, but I am too tired and sick to go out… Chris came and asked me lots of nonsense today… when he tried to borrow a DVD from me he was like is a MUST to borrow to him like that… and I hate those attitude the most :s… anyway I hate him more now.. I don’t know why…

Oh ya I would like to thanks Sj for the emails… thanks a lot… anyway I would say give a chance to yourself and the ‘someone’ as long as u are happy with it… we don’t invite love, love come anytime… cherish and treasure anyone who is around u… I know someone got to say the same thing to me… but seriously… Duc is a nice guy but he deserve to a better girl… definitely not me… normally the bf is handsome, the gf will be ugly and if the gf is pretty the bf will be ugly… so nothing is perfect in this world :x

Hmm… I think I will watch some movies while waiting for him to online… no matter what, thanks for reading my blog again… I know some of u read it everyday… and there is even someone told me that my blog is like a entertainment for him… gosh… don’t ever take my life as any entertainment okay? :P u know who u are while u r reading until here… lol…

Thanks mum, I know Justin had told u about my blog and I know u went through my blog as well… if u can’t contact me, please check my updates here :P… I’ve told aunty Irene about my plan, she is asking me to move to Sydney, but I am not sure yet as I prefer Melbourne than Sydney… will let u know the further decision soon…

Thanks to all my cousins and friends… thanks for supporting my blog :P

What am I thinking about?

Yay!!! Finally I’ve got my blog adjusted and rectified the spelling mistakes… well… what I’ve done today…. Let’s see… I slept in about my time 730am, woke up at 215pm… then I came online as I wanted to start to adjust my blog… hmm, please do leave your comment after you read my blog, I wonder if is better than before.

Once I got online got to chat with Jaja, Vincent, my cousins, Eline and few chatters… then I’ve change my nick to bubble^happy. Everyone starts following me to get their nicks changed.

Then I’ve played game with Jaja and after that we’ve got voice chat with Jaja and Eline… Eline got a sweet voice and Jaja can sings really well… the way Eline talk to us is like me and Jaja is a real couple… we called each other Lao Gong (husband) and Lao por ( wife) in IRC… it reminds me of the first anniversary with Ian…

Jaja had sung a song ‘love paradise’ and this is a nice song, she got to download and send to me… I’ve been repeating the same song since I started to adjust my blog… he was online a while after I online for like 40 minutes… then he is away now… been waiting for him as I wanted to share this song with him… I hope he will not reject…

When I went to the kitchen, I realized that I had wasted lots of foods… I’ve keep them in the fridge and I’ve forgotten about them kekekeke… anyway I will not waste any food anymore… I know there are lots of people been suffering without food and I am still wasting the food here :s…

Okay let me share the lyrics of the song here if you want the song, do message me and I’ll sent to u… u know where to get me right? *winks*

*You're always on my mind

All day just all the time

You're everything to me

Brightest star to let me see

You touch me in my dreams

We kiss in every scene

I pray to be with you

through rain and shiny days*

#I'll love you Till I die

Deep as sea Wide as sky

The beauty of our love paints rainbows

Everywhere we go

Need you all my life

You're my hope You're my pride

In your arms I find my heaven

In your eyes my sea and sky

May life be our love paradise#

Hmm... actually there are lots of things I want to type earlier but I can’t think of any at the moment as I am feeling tired and sleepy… will try to get some sleep soon…

Once again Happy New Year to everyone!!!!

Happy New Year

This beginning of the New Year is a bit different... lots of people tries to talk to me as they want me to be their listener...

Well... wise is one of the chatter that tells me all her problems... I am a bit tired of advising her because she will come out with any reason whenever I tell my opinion... :x
then Ken had mesg me and he is facing some problems in his love life too... and besides that there are some friends that I dun normally chat much had mesg me....

Anyway I got no mood to chat actually so I dun really chat much... I’ve told Ken that I can't sleep and maybe I am waiting for him to get online...

And not more than 5 minutes he came online! I was shock! My heart beat very fast out of sudden *^_^*.... anyway I was in away mode and I changed to online mode... then we had few lines chat... even though is still a few lines chat I feel very happy already :P
is this power of love? Lol I guess so... anyway I can sleep now :P as I know he is home already :) good night everyone :P wish me have a sweet dream :P

I am Still awake

I am still awake at the moment... well I will spend sometimes in rectify some spelling mistakes and adjust the paragraph tomolo when i wake up...

Got one comment from gor where my blogs are too long and no paragraph so I got to do something about it...

Anyway thanks for supporting me and I am happy when there are some friends keep reading my blog everyday... :) thanks a lot...

Anyway sorry for the unorganized blog and I will try my best to do something with it :)
good morning and happy new year