Saturday, May 28, 2005

updates

Okay let’s see what happened to me in the passed 10 days….

Since the last time I blogged, I’ve face some problems in work as well as the problems occurred among housemates…I’ve finally resigned from my work, all the weird people in the workplace making me sick and my supervisor was horrible and so I couldn’t stand anymore and I decided to resign… few colleagues are acting so weird especially when they followed me to catch the trams and trying to approach me most of the time… it cause me problem when my supervisor was blaming me that making people to gather around me and causing the work quality dropped… I was wondering, is that really my fault? Crazy!

In my house, got a new black girl moved in the house, she has a very awkward smell and habit… I couldn’t tolerate at all… whenever she passed by my room I will make sure I spray some air fresheners… and finally Marc got a new girlfriend and he brought home sometimes… it was really horrible as the moaning voice are so loud at night :s… Laco is going to move soon as he is going to travel and going back to his home country soon… I am losing a buddy that can hang out with me anytime soon… :s…

Was angry of Fion because she didn’t visited me as what she had promised but she went travel around in UK and France :s… she asked Fai for my address, but I did not asked her what is she going to do with it and been ignored her for 2 days…

Due to the signs and symptoms of depression that I have, my god father had suggested me to consult a psychologist… anyway these are the signs and symptoms…

Emotional
• Sadness
• Anxiety
• Guilt
• Anger
• Mood swings
• Lack of emotional responsiveness
• Helplessness
• Hopelessness

Physical
• Chronic fatigue, lack of energy
• Sleeping too much or too little
• Overeating or loss of appetite
• Constipation
• Weight loss or gain
• Irregular menstrual cycle
• Loss of sexual desire
• Unexplained aches and pains

Behavioral
• Crying spells
• Withdrawal from others
• Worrying
• Neglect of responsibilities
• Loss of interest in personal appearance
• Loss of motivation

thoughts/Perceptions
• Frequent self-criticism
• Self-blame
• Pessimism
• Impaired memory and concentration
• Indecisiveness and confusion
• Tendency to believe others see you in a negative light
• Thoughts of death and suicide
Arggghhh.. have no ideas why is this happened to me… hate it so much… and now I am going to post it and continue my movie… oh yeah.. The movie genre that I liked had changed… oh no.. it’s been a big changes happened to me.. :s