I hope it is a better change

Just woke up today… 2pm at the moment… blasting some music… the whole week last week was so restless and busy because I had functions everyday in last week… busy preparing the functions food and guiding new people to set up the function rooms and stuffs…

There few bad news from last week… one of my manager’s dog passed away -.-, my ex housemate V and K decided to divorce and they are getting all the document sign as soon as possible… one of my friend getting a new options for her life again because her company is dealing with the piracy issues… my ear rings gone again… I’ve resigned from my night shift earlier but they said I can go only when they found someone to replace me… but I walk off yesterday…

Not really happy last night when I decided to resign… but am kind of relief to me… feel bad and feel a bit relief… that was kind of a last minute daring decision after so long… feeling unhappy to work with a lady who pretend to be your friend but keep stabbing you at the back… I know no matter where we go we will find someone like this…

I think is not worth to stay in a place where you devoted your time and effort so much and given your heart to, but nothing seems to be appreciate and what you’ve got at the end of the day is betrayer and blames…

Is already been delay for sometimes for the resignation because I think is better to keep till I found something else… and I am thinking to challenge myself to face something hard fro myself and learn from there… unfortunately the patient failed to gone through the challenge…

Yesterday was a bit of changes in my work… I have been so soft and good to my staffs before… but everything explode in one day… we got only 2 functions yesterday, there are lots of mistakes that not supposed to happened all happened in once… I was being harsh by saying “you are long enough to avoid all these happen?” “can you please stop dreaming?” I know they will hate the me yesterday, but I just can’t allowed all this happen again, at the end of the day all the blames will go on me because I didn’t point them out before…

Even my manager can rest himself, because he don’t have to worry anything about the functions and staffs… all he did yesterday was keep cooking hahaha… that was good to him because he got less worried concentrate on his cooking and achieve the best taste in food…

I hope everything will be better… and there are some good changes in the work place since I’ve being a bit harsh… wish me luck… as for my night shift… I confronted the manager and express how I fed up with the work there… and finally I said yesterday was the last day I will be in there… told few of my loyal customers… they got me to sit with them and tell them the full story… they are nice and they actually come up before I go and give me the last word as well as some huggles… it was a sad moment… my colleague thought I might stay for a while… but when I walk out to the security I gave back my work pass as well and said I quit… she got stunt, but I just couldn’t be bothered anymore…

Alright… another new day for me and I hope things will be a lot better and better…

I am living in denial at the moment

Finally my break is over and I am going to bed soon :s…. going to work tomorrow but I am not really feeling to back to work again… I wish to take some leaves soon, but spoken to my manager and he doesn’t allow me to do so because he will be in trouble to face all the new people in workplace now…

My holidays started in Thursday night… I haven’t been working since then… as what I’ve updated in previous blog… I had some fun in that night… then come to Friday night… I went out with some friends and hung out with them in a bar… been drinking a lot in this Easter break… maybe been heart breaking as well hehe…

In Saturday I hung out with my colleagues again and we went to the Singaporean restaurant for dinner… then we went to Crown casino to walk around… gambled and won some money… then we went to few clubs in the casino… didn’t really drink much because I promised my diary I will not drink a lot… bought one pink crystal… in heart shape one… it looks nice to me so I bought it to give me some love luck LOL…

I have enough bees… but I want a real boyfriend who will be the one who is near to me, can care for me… love me… then in Sunday night I went out with my ex housemates and we had some cheesecake and a glass of cocktail in a café that we used to hang out a lot… unfortunately the cakes seems to disappointed us :s… after that we went to the food court to have some food for dinner… then we went to do some shopping in crown… and finally went in a pub to have few drinks…

Wasn’t feeling happy and keep drinking till I feel a bit drunk then came home… once I reached home argued with Eric and then went to bed straight away… when I woke up today, was so tired and don’t feel like doing anything… so I really wasted the whole day doing all the junk… not feeling happy at all… not even have the mood in listen to any of the song… and feeling so frustrated… didn’t do anything that I planned to do today as well… sigh…

Anyway is hard for me to express here because I know I have some unwanted visitors to my blog lately… sometimes you will see a half story here as well… where I don’t really typing everything out… anyway I think I do tell you guys in messengers hehe… okay la… off to bed now… tata…