28th January 2005, Friday

Hmmm time to blog… will be typing as fast as I can because I don’t when my god father will be calling me…

Today I had went to see doctor for check up, nothing much as I got food poisoning last 2 days… just got recovered and been eating lots of junks kekek… after seeing doctor, went to see the lawyer about the shop handling over, this case been delay for half year and is not done yet… the lawyer had charge AUSD 7000 just for the legal issues in this case… so whoever wanna be a lawyer, I reckon you to migrate here… you can earn so much here!!!

After that, me and Joey met to have lunch in Footscray, we had out Vietnamese cuisine… as usual, we ordered chili beef noodles… then we went to shop around the souvenir shops near by to get a present for Ee Teng…

We finished shopping around 130pm and it was too early to come home, so I decided to watch movie with Joey, we went to Crown to watch Closer, it is about this provocative, brutal look at modern relationships features four actors at the top of their game. Sparky young stripper Alice (Natalie Portman) meets aspiring novelist Dan (Jude Law) when she's hit by a car on the streets of London, having shared a connection walking towards each other just seconds before. Romance ensues, and Dan blossoms into a confident and sexy author. He then has the self-assurance to pursue the woman he believes he's in love with - photographer Anna (Julia Roberts). But she has just come out of a bad marriage, and is about to fall in love with a handsome dermatologist named Larry (Clive Owen). Over the course of several years, these four characters criss-cross each others' lives - manipulating and being manipulated; loving and being loved - in a merry-go-round of sex and betrayal.
Hmm, I quite enjoy the movie as it is a lot more comfortable and I love to see Julia Roberts in the movie… we planned to watch Alfie before home too, but when we finished watching Closer it was around 5pm and Alfie will be showing in 7pm, so we decided to watch Alfie tomorrow…

Saw the preview of Mr & Mrs Smith which is a movie by Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie… it was not bad from the movie trailer but I hope it is not disappointing… then planned to watch Pacifier, which is a movie by Vin Diesel, Bride & prejudice, which is a combination of Bollywood and Hollywood movie, Spanglish which is a movie starring by Adam Sandler, Hitch, a comedy film by Will Smith and also the Son of the Mask… the baby looks cute… lol.. anyway these will be the movie queuing up for me to watch in next 2 months…

Hmm… after the movie I had came home and start snaking around checking my blog, arranging my things and went out for dinner… there goes my day… I had a dream last night… well… I dream of someone, kekeke…. I don’t feel like exposing the name as I already told him I dream of him… I was in the danger in that dream and I was running in the whole dream… and he appear as a hero to save me from danger… anyway nothing happen after that, but I dream of Ian, ain’t going to talk about it because when the sweet dream been telling out, it will not come true… :x… so I decided to keep it to myself… either it will happen or not I will be telling you guys later :P… okay ciaoz now as I am pretty tired now… take care guys and have a good weekends…

Specially for you all

To all My friends 

I am really happy to have all the concerns and cares from you all... I feel touch when I got to know that you all will surf on my blog even you are busy... Thanks a lot...

Happy Birthday Gor

Happy Birthday Gor 

hmm... gor.. gets older lor... have to be guai kia... Don't be Chao Ah Beng hor.. keke... anyway looking forward to see you and Da Sao together forever and ever :) Do take good care in your NS period...

From thursday to friday

Been busy doing the reports and assignment for the whole day… not really have any mood to eat anything and end up had some sandwiches fro dinner… still sick and tired actually and got myself 1 sleeping pill and slept at 10++pm then woke up around 4am…

Went online to have a look and got to chat with Pat, Ken, Yvonne and c4mry… anyway not really in the chatting mood as well, so got myself hanging there for 1 hour without really chat for one hour and got offline…

Don’t feel like doing anything actually… going back to sleep soon as I can’t visualize or can’t get to start doing anything… just surf through some webby and did some research but will be reading them when I am home later…

Surf through the friendster and read through some testimonials back… hmmm... miss the time where I had with him… where we flooded each other’s testimonials… if I got to be with him… I will not want to flood it again… something being delete will not get it back anymore….

Pat was asking why am I awfully quiet for the passed few days… hmm… I guess I am not in the mood of chatting where I am putting myself to concentrate in other things… if I don’t chat, I will not get to know him and we will not get to chat… anyway… I am always there to help out or to see people chat… so I guess I am still normal?

Okay I think that’s all for now as I don’t wish to type further now… I wish to rest a while before I start my day later… have a nice to day to my friends who always surf on my blog… thanks a lot… I know you all care for me and surf on my blog to know what is going on in my life… I am sorry because I am not typing much in pass few blogs… I will try my best to motivate myself to post things out again… I know I am back to a life where I keep things to myself again…

Don’t worry I will be fine :)…. Tata for now…

p/s: Happy birthday Xian Yao gor gor,... I don't know when you will be surfing on my blog... but I wish u first as I didn't forget your birthday :)
Not forgetting to my most KNS buddy Dylan... I hope you had a happy birthday in 27th January... at least I never forget your birthday NOT like u... :x

26th January 2005

Can’t really remember, or I should say I don’t wish to think about things happened yesterday… was having a hot and frustrated day…

Helping Jeff to do his assignment and got his call since the morning to ask if I’ve started the assignment and he is kind of giving me some pressure in doing his assignments… anyway might be watching Alfie with him in the Saturday…

Serena going back tonight and most of my friends are back to the home country for Chinese New Year… hmmm… anyway wish she got a save journey home…

Didn’t got to watch Closer yet… but will be watching it soon… sigh… feeling so blur and empty… I ate a lot last night, I got myself a burger with some eggs, veggie and cheese, then I got myself some fish and chips and calamari rings, got the lust of eating meat out of sudden and I went out to buy some food, was thinking to go to Coles to buy some meat to cook, but when I walked in, there are lots of people and I am lazy to wait for the queue so I turn back out and decide which food I should hunt for…

Anyway not really eating much in the day time as I got no appetite... having fever in this summer time is just killing me…

I guess that is what I want to blog for now… have a nice day guys :)

Moody

Not in the mood at the moment, not so sure what is going wrong… woke up early in today and came online… got fainted and luckily Joey was here… he then send me to hospital… he gave me lots of different impression and I am just hoping to be his friend from now on…

Will be seeing his mum tomorrow, nothing better but just go for a lunch… sigh… I don’t feel like listen to any songs, I don’t feel like watching any movies and I don’t feel like doing anything… I am just feeling frustrated… I don’t know what the hell I am thinking about…

Damn… I am feeling hot and uncomfortable; I am hoping so much to get out of here! What the hell that drags me here? What is my future like? Arghhhh! I am getting crazy! Whatever issit pardon me for posting this stupid blog as I am damn frustrated to post out my feelings…

It's really pain!!! I don't know what else I can do to stop it :S, yes you might think I am just throwing my temper again... but what else?

Gone for now!

Another post for 24th January

Hmm… a blog before I rest myself… was thinking that I am not ready to get into any relationship? Or I am being selfish? Well… I should go on to try what I want in life… I should know when I should stop…

I was thinking I don’t even know how to take care of myself and who am I to take care and love other people? He is just a big baby that needs someone to pamper and loves as well… I am worry that I can’t cope to be with him… anyway… does he still want me? I don’t even know about this and I am thinking to take care of him… what a joke :)…

Passed by Ralph Lauren today and planned to buy a dress, but they got only size 6 for that dress :s… got to gain weight to aim for that dress!!! Anyway fat fat fat please do attack me!!! :x

hmm Should I get my things done on tomorrow? hmmm... 35 degrees again :s... will see how when I wake up tomorrow...

Grrr!!! Stop asking me about Marcus…. He is just making up the stories! I don’t even want to talk to him how am I going to have sex with him? :s…. sigh… whatever issit, I am not Marcus’s and I will not be his GF!

Ciao for now!

Monday blue

Finally I am home!!! Hmmm… well… should I say this is a nice movie? For me, if you don’t try to analyze what you watched in the process of watching the movie, it will be a good movie, try to analyze the movie after you watch it will be good…

Basically this is a movie that Based on the popular stage musical, Andrew Lloyd Webber’s The Phantom Of The Opera tells the story of a musical genius named the Phantom (Gerard Butler), who hides his disfigurement behind a mask. He haunts the catacombs beneath the Paris Opera House, disturbing the actors and actresses who grace the stage. But when he spies the beautiful young soprano Christine (Emmy Rossum), the Phantom is smitten and tutors her so well that she is soon regarded as the city’s best. Though he devoted his all to nurture Christine’s talent, he cannot win her heart, as she still pines for her childhood love Raoul Viscount de Changey (Patrick Wilson). Hurt and betrayed, the Phantom kidnaps the young soprano with one intention … to make her his eternal bride…

If you like musical film, and some special effects from how they transforms the old time to new generation, this would be the one you are looking for… anyway the cinema I went wasn’t that nice and had a bad sound effects in the cinema… the seats are not the comfortable as well…

Not only the environment that cause me not enjoying the movie, but I was flooded by sms from my friends… stupid Marcus had told people I am his girlfriend and he had sex with me… he is just an idiot that I don’t really like… he is from a rich family and he loves to carry his rich guy’s temper, and he just being annoying most of the time, I will always avoid the outing when he is around…

Another idiot was Vertex :s… he went to told Divin and I am his girlfriend and luckily Divin didn’t gave him my email… he is just a crazy guy from somewhere… okay enough of idiots… I am not in the mood of talking about them… well... after I reach city just now, I met Serena and we went to have our dinner, I’ve got myself lemon grass chicken chop on rice… then Joey called and finally he joined us for movie…

Hmm… been answered a no no answer to him before I got down from his car just now… I hate to reject people in person… is just a cruel action… anyway I wish we would just stay as friend….

Talk about movies… looking forward to watch needing you in TV tomorrow, then will be watching closer in Wednesday, watching Alfie and kung fu in 14th February, wonder if I want to watch Finding neverland… looking forward to watch pacifier too… most slightly will get Fai, Jason, Laco, Cherry, Elaine, Justin and Jacklyn to watch movies with me during their visit to Melbourne…

Hmm… went for check up today again, and weight still maintain in 35KG, doctor was scolding me of not resting at night… he defined me as killing myself slowly, as I have a weak liver, which I am not suppose to stay up late at night… anyway I am trying my best to adjust my lifestyles…

Nothing much to type as I’ve done what I should have done today… all I need now is a good rest to cure the ache on my body as well as my sleepy eyes… might start working on my reports later, and helping Jeffery to do his assignment… gone for now…

My weekend

Hmm… been lazy for 2 days of not updating my blog… thanks for the concern as asking me how I have been :)… I know you guys been surfing on my blog for the pass 2 days and see nothing update about myself…

Okay here I am to update about myself… my comp’s adapter was sick on last Saturday lol… and so do the owner of the comp… well been through a tiring day on Saturday which I got my things rearrange in the room and there are some boxes need to be shipped back…

In Saturday night I got to chat with my ex boyfriend (Mike), and finally we got a chance to talk openly about the pass… we never talk openly before as we always end up argue… we were arguing in the beginning of the conversation but after that was getting alright as we tried to talk about things… there are lots of misunderstanding between me and him that we never sort it out… I cried and hung up the phone as I feel stuck in between loving Ian and forgiving my ex boyfriend…

I am giving myself a break from getting into a new relationship… we had broke up for 1 month and 23 days… 21 days after we broke up I had started this blog and I used to express so much for him… and I wished he would spent sometimes in reading my blog… but after all I realized he doesn’t really read on my blog… is just a waste of time… I felt like deleting this blog… but after considered for a while, I think I should keep this as my memory… it is good to have some memory than nothing… and I believe people who surfs on my blog are friends who really concerned and care about me… thanks a lot…

In that night I was sad and cried for nothing, every of my friends were trying to called me as I am suppose to go to the beach with them, Laco is the first one who realized about it and he had told everyone that I was crying… and they did called me and asked but I was trying to avoid telling them as I was tired…

Thanks Pat for calling me all the way from UK :)… at least I feel better after talking it out… and I was thinking to write out again in my blog or not lol… anyway thanks a lot…

Then I got myself tired of crying and fell asleep after that… when I woke up the next morning it was 830am Sunday… I called Vincent up and told him about my computer problems then he came and picked up my computer and fix it for me… then Joey had asked me if I wanna go to shopping… so we went to bridge road and crown for different brands shopping…

In crown we got some prestigious brands including Burberry, Gianni Versace, Louis Vuitton, Prada and Gianfranco Ferre. Errr don’t worry I am not spending money in any of this brands as they are too expensive for me :)… I don’t need such expensive things to carry or wear when I am out… besides those brands we went for a street wear and lifestyle apparel shopping like Stussy, Armani Exchange, FCUK and beach culture… most of the clothes that I want got no suitable size for me… I am wearing size 4 and they’ve got size 6 or 8 :s… so I had bought few size 6 and 8 to motivate myself to gain more weight to wear them…
After that, we went to the factory outlet shopping in Bridge road… that is the shopping where causing me broke…. Because there are too many things that attracts me to buy them :S…. there are lots of brands in that place which are Country Road, Rivers, Ojay, Jacqui E, Roadhouse, Home express, Perri Cutten, Sportsmode, shoe culture, Givoni, Kamikaze, Gem vision, Doc Martens, Caterpillar, Skechers, Mossimo, Suburban, Mack purple pumpkin and many many more… anyway, if you got a chance to visit Melbourne, make sure you will spent some times there for shopping as that is just a good place to shop around :P…

Felt better after the shopping as I’ve bought things I want and I’ve bought some present for my sisters and mum… besides that, I’ve spend the whole day with Joey shopping around… he is just a maid for me in the shopping as he carried all my things lol… anyway… thanks Joey :P… I hate to call u Joey!!! Is like calling myself tho… :s…

Hmm… there goes my weekend and I’ve got my computer back in 11.30pm last night… so now I am here to blog again… I think I got to stop now a I am going to continue some work and going out for movies in short while.. going to watch the phantom of opera :P… tata for now and I will be back later probably after dinner time…

Wish you all have a nice day and I will write more as actually there are things in my mind but I guess I am too tired to type… had 2 hours slept in this morning hur hur… hopefully I will not fall asleep in the cinema keke…