Girl In Pink

Yeah... I am the girl in pink tonight: P,....
Let me describe how I look like tonight before I start typing what I had done just now... well I was in my pink dress... the back of the dress is just empty and there are only one string on the neck and the other string tied on the waist... with my pink heels, pink make up, pink ear rings, pink necklace....
in around 10pm we left from our house... we went to the city by tram... we stopped at the Crown Casino stop and we walk along Yarra River to the city... it was really packed and lots of people... people mountain people sea... lol... is actually Chinese saying of crowd...
we were holding everyone hands so we will not get lost...

As usual… Duc and I are the one who walking on the front to lead others… Cherry come out with a idea where we went into every pub in Crown Casino for a drink while we walking towards the city direction… and we did it…

We stopped at st. Kilda Road, which is the place where nearest to the fireworks place… we are somewhere near to Flinder St. railway station and Federation Square… and so we met lots of new friends and we were making fun of each other while we are waiting for the fireworks…

In around 1158pm the fireworks start… I wanted to call KKY but the network is busy :s… I can’t accept or make any call out :s… one funny thing is we are standing under the sign “no fireworks viewing, keep moving” lol… we are at the right spot because we can view the fireworks from the beginning till the end of the river… it was really nice…

There are so many ‘octopus’ :s they just touch here and there :s… once the fireworks end, we walk towards the Tram stop via Swanston St. we stopped at Hungry Jacks ( In Malaysia we call it Burger King) and they got themselves some whooper meals… :S… why am I showing :S? It is because Burger King is his favorite fast food…

We were surprised because the tram to our house’s direction was empty… them we got into the tram… Chris had disappointed me… and he is definitely in my ‘black list’ he acted like a kid! When we were in the Hungry Jacks, there are lots of people from the event… and he stand at a side while he asked Cherry to buy him a large Coke and he refused to squeeze in… come on… I mean don’t he suppose to show his gentleman skills to us? Another thing is when we were waiting for the tram, there are 3 old ladies came to the stop and wait with us… we were sitting on the bench but once the 3 old ladies walk towards us, all guys stand up and let the old ladies sit while Chris is still sitting there… after that, once we got into the tram, he doesn’t even care for any elderly or pregnant woman… he just got himself a seat and look out to the window… my god… I would never want a boyfriend like him…

And we got home early today as I can’t sleep last night :S… and so I am home now!!! We got ourselves champagne… they are now enjoying the champagne in the living hall... will be joining them in short while…

They are planning to go to see the sun rise again :s… I think I will surrender this time as I can’t stand anymore… I am feeling sick and tired at the moment…

Thanks for all the sms and greetings… Happy New Year and good night! I think this is my first blog for year 2005 :P….

A blog before I go out

Are already 846pm... But I am still here stucking myself in my room... thinking nonsense...

I used to wish he will found his love one soon... but I realized I am not that generous... been thinking lots of things today....

Never been eating anything till just now... never feel hungry at all :s... how am I going to gain weight if I continue like this!!! :S.... I hate myself so much :S....

I just want to gain weight back ASAP!!!! haihz...

Anyway... Time to go now... will try my best to shout as loud as I can :s....
wish u all has a happy 2005!!!!

May everyone near tsunami disasters area will get prepare before anymore death increasing...
May all of your dreams come true~~~~
love U KKY...

My fault again

I am supposed to go out now... but I am just being too tired... I've call Duc's mum to apologize of not able to turn up for lunch... I argued with Duc and he is not playing game with my housemates at the living hall...
I know is my fault but sigh... nothing to say besides sorry!
Anyway I saw this in my friendster's buletin... and I think of him.... :S....

If a boy cries in front of you,
it means that he couldn't take it anymore.
If you took his hand,
he would stay with you for the rest of your life;
If you let him go, he couldn't go back to being
himself anymore.

A boy won't cry easily,
except in front of the person who he love the most,
he becomes weak.

A boy won't cry easily,
only when he love you the most,
he put down his ego.

Girls, if a boy cried bcoz of you,
please hold his hands firmly,
he's the one who would stay with you for the rest of
your life.

Girls, if a boy cried bcoz of you,
please don't give him up,
maybe bcoz of your decision,
you ruin his life.

Sleepy

I just woke up 20 minutes ago... went to bed at 7++am and then sleep until now.... is just because of one phone call and I am awake now.... Duc called me and said he is on his way to pick me up :s...

I promised I will go to his house for lunch today before I am going for any of the countdown... When he called he was a bit angry because I supposed to be in his house at 12.30pm.... but I am still on my bed... He said his mum had prepared the meal....
And so i wake up and sitting here to type my blog before I get myself prepare for today's outing....

Last night been chatting with one of my friend... he asked me why I am still not accepting Duc... so I ask him back... There are so many good and nice guys around me... So am I supposed to accept every one of them? He went quiet and I just don't feel like talking anything about it anymore...

today is a hot day :s... i should be lucky as I don't get this weather in Christmas :P
I suppose to be happy when I know the thing I sensed is not true.... but why I am not happy at all after I knew it?....

one of my 'Jie' had called me... she is going out with a guy 4 years younger than her... well... I don't really like her though... I don't really recognized her as my jie anyway.... she's been hurting my cousin.... the guy she went with is my cousin's ex boyfriend... she is trying to make her sad and jealous... what a bitch...

today Chun, Laco, Serena, Shirley, Cherry, Chris and Duc will be my friends to go through the new year countdown party with me....

Rick had divorced with his wife... just got a message from him... anyway, he had been suffering for 3 years in that marriage... I think is time for him to leave... He is a good husband... I knew him from my class... every time after class he will rush home to accompany his wife... He worked very hard to take care of his wife... whenever he went shopping he will never forgot to buy something for his wife... I am just wondering what is in his wife's mind... she is blaming Rick of not being good enough... she used to went out with other guy, but Rick had been patience enough with her... sigh... well... what we can do is just comfort Rick and do whatever we can as a friend... hope he will be fine soon.... Lucky he got no children... or else he will be in big trouble... sigh...

I've called Bs's mum yesterday... she had been complaining about Bs's sister in law... she had gave birth a baby but she doesn't care about the baby... whenever she argued with her husband, she will just say she doesn't want the baby, is all her husband wants only... sigh... she had been pregnant for 9 months... she had been suffered to deliver the baby.. How could she being so cruel? Sigh... I don't really understand what is she thinking....

moo moo and Sandy had messaged me the new year greetings, thanks :) anyway I am still awaiting the greeting from penguin, baba, gors and him....

times fly... there goes year 2004 :s.... don't really want to list out the achievements in year 2004... Is not the time to show of :) but one thing I would say is... I achieve whatever I want in my studies; I got what I want in my shopping in year 2004.... I failed myself in relationship wise... got to know lots of new friends.... been missing some of my friends... and basically I am suppose to be happy for what I've got....

I wish I could shout out KKY I miss u so much!!!!!! KKY I love u so much!!!!! Sigh...
By the way... I am not suppose to drag my time here anymore... even though I am losing my mood to go out because of this hot weather, I got to go out as what I've promised :S.... having diarrhea now :s....

p/s: I should be satisfy... I've told him what I am going to do :P.... mish mish mish him a lot... Happy New Year to everyone... Happy New year to KKY... do not drink and drive... enjoy yourself ... ciaoz

Missing Daddy and him badly

Somewhere Out There

Somewhere out there,
Beneath the pale moonlight,
Someone's thinking of me,
And loving me tonight.

Somewhere out there,
Someone's saying a prayer,
That we'll find one another,
In that big somewhere out there.

And even though I know how very far apart we are,
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star,
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby,
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky!

Somewhere out there,
If love can see us through,
Then we'll be together,
Somewhere out there,
Out where dreams
Come true...

today we emailed each other... he told me he got no gf now... this is a song he used to send to me and shared with me... whenever I listen to this song I will miss him and miss daddy so much... whenever I listen to this song is like we look into the same stars and making wish upon the same star....

I am tired of lamer in IRC... a stupid idiot had been loaded up diff proxy to join in #my.fm sigh.. I am wondering what is in those lamers's mind... :S...

Here to blog again

I am crying at the moment… I just finished watching a movie… it is about a lover fight to live together, but they got separated at the end because the hero had passed away…

Everything start from a nasty girlfriend and they end up fighting with a group of crook… the saddest part of the movie is the time the hero doesn’t know how to swim and he swim into the sea to save his girlfriend life while he is injured… and finally he is dead in the sea… the girlfriend tried to save his life too… unfortunately it was too late…

The girl regretted of being nasty before the incident… but nothing she can do to compensate the love anymore….

It reminds me of Danny’s case… Danny is my ex boyfriend who passed away 4 years ago… I knew Danny from IRC… then we keep contact in MSN… after a while he kept calling me… my mum knows about him because he kept calling my house phone to reach me… one day he suggested to meet out… so I agreed and he came to fetch me from somewhere near my house… I was in the holiday as my mum don’t want me to fall in love in that age… so I got to cheated my mum in order to meet him…

Once he saw me he was so nervous and I felt nervous too… he hold my hand after he seen me not more than 10 minutes…

I am really nervous and I was shaking… he brought me to the mamak stall and so we had our first time meet in a mamak stall… he is actually my first boyfriend… since I can’t stay up too late he got to sent me home after in 2 hours time… he send me to a bus stop near my house… and he took away my first kiss in the car that night…

We’ve been together for one year… after one year he told me he wanted to go back to his ex girlfriend… his ex girlfriend had threaten him with commit suicide… I thought I can be generous and I asked him to go back to his ex girlfriend… I always love rainy days… whenever it rains it reminds me of the day we broke up… it was really a sad day... it rains heavily… he send me somewhere near my house… I forced him to stop at the road side or I will jump down from the car… I wanted to walk in the rain so I can cry without letting my mum knows I was crying… he is the first guy who cried for me because of love…

I run very fast and I fell down in the rain… I got my hand injured… when I reach home it was a bit late and I got to make up story to my mum… right after I explained to my mum I ran into the bath room and took one hour shower… I cried and I went to sleep straight away… we still keep contact as he is still loving me…

Few months later, he broke up with his ex girlfriend and he asked me if I want to patch back… but I refuse because I am too far from him… in the school break I had went back Malaysia for holidays… we still meet each other but we are not into any relationship… the feeling is still there but we didn’t make any move… whenever he send me home he will kissed me on my cheek…

There was one night he got argued with me… I supposed to go to a party with him… but end up he went to the party alone… he got drunk and he got accident in his way home… when the time I got the news it was too late…

He is one and only memory that keeps in my mind for so long… I dun even remember when my grandparents were passed away…

When something is not belonging to me I will not ask for it anymore… I’ve been regretted for once and I hope I will not be regretting anymore…

Today cicak had left IRC… he said he will not want to go back IRC anymore… :s… I wasn’t happy but I can’t do anything much as I am feeling down... the feeling is like losing a friend… I hope we can still keep in touch…

Today I am happy that Kate had type something for me… thanks Kate… anyway my brain gone blank at the moment... I will stop typing now and I will be trashing things out again if there is anything in my mind…

Feel touch

I would like tot thanks my friends... i feel touch when they are concern about me :)
first I checked my friendster and i got this mesg from a friend :)
bubble gal gal,

how r u? the motive 2 send u this msg jus
wanna understand more abt urself...

i alwayz read ur bulletin n i felt that i'm not
very
understand u...will u give me achance to do that?

u said u will hav an operation soon... so what
happens 2 u? i really worry abt u. i've many
questions on u since i knew u. however i'm not
dare 2 ask u while chating. I afraid that u refuse 2
tel...

so wil u tel more abt urself 2 me in future?

don't be sad n moody...i alwaz be ur side n my ears are 4 u....

u know? Is really warm when u got a mesg like this? i feel i am fortunate enough to have the care from all my friends :)

then I got this from ah nic lol...
[ 17:52:16 ] (~aH`Nic) dont ask yourself to dont think or forgot the ppl
[ 17:52:27 ] (~aH`Nic) cause that's more hard for you to do it
[ 17:53:00 ] (~aH`Nic) cause when you are asking yourself to do it that time you are still think
[ 17:53:13 ] (~aH`Nic) if you are not think you won't be ask
[ 17:53:42 ] (~aH`Nic) if you ask you will think

I don’t know why I will laugh after I see him type this :) yes whoever surf on my blog will think I am always being sad... but think about it.. if I never been sad I will not learn at all :) so something sadness is just a way I learn to grow up :)
thanks for all the care and concern from all my friends :)

Want to be alone

Want to be alone… under the starry night

Want to be alone just with you…

I can feel you staying with me forever

I can see you smile

Want to be alone under the starry night

All the stars still shine I want to share this precious time

Just being with you….

This is a song where I listen from one of the movie some times ago… our life is just a miracle…

Some people will think of commit suicide just to leave the suffer life… some people would like to commit suicide because they failed to succeed in their career, some people want to commit suicide because they lose all of the treasures in their games, some people commit suicide because they felt empty in their life… some people commit suicide because of avoiding the fact in their life.. Some people want to die because of avoiding their responsibility in life…

There are so many kinds of people in this world gather in this universe… after I talked to my dad... I asked myself what myself want. What am I doing to improve my life? Why am I still alive while those who suppose to be alive had passed away?

Look at those victims in tsunami… I don’t think they want to die, I don’t think they had done what they want to do… I’ve so many things that I wish to do... But did I start any of them? Am I guiding myself? Am I giving myself lots of reasons to delay everything in my life?

I always blame my family of giving lots of pressure, I always blaming I’m going through a life that I am not suppose to gone through in my age… did I ever think who am I without them? Did I ever feel thankful for what I had now? I wonder if everyone had a chance to try all this on their own. Is everyone having a fortunate life like mine?

Love is just part of the life… different people will treat love differently… come across to think about a movie… there is a guy who treat love as a game… when he is interested he will play the game until he feel bored… once he is bored he will just leave it and change to other game…

The second guy has a good girl friend... She is not that pretty but she’s trying her best to change herself to suit her boy friend but her boy friend keep finding a reason to leave her… she being patience to her boy friend, cook for him when he is home, clear all his debt… try to achieve his dream as she can…few days before their wedding, the guy realized that he has to love the girl and he tried to change… unfortunately he had passed away in an accident…

The third guy is a very lucky guy, he and his wife worked in the same company, but he got fired due to the economy failure in the company… and his wife remains to work in the company… because of building up the career and earn more money for living she work very hard for the company… because of the work she neglected her husband… but she is trying so hard to cheer her husband up whenever she is home… due to some reasons her husband met his ex girl friend back… he always meet up with his ex girlfriend and he got to know that she needs a lot of love… he is trying to patch back with her… but in one of the meeting, she told him that she is envy of his wife because she has a good husband like him… and she asked about all the good points of hers… after he told his ex girlfriend about all the good points about his wife.. He realized that he never been love her for what she is but keep blaming her for what she had done… and so he ran back and try to get his wife back… and he did it…

The forth guy is a guy who loves game… is only games in his life… he got a good girlfriend… his girlfriend will always accompany him when he is playing game… and got nothing much to talk about this guy because he keep playing games in the movies without bothering how people think and how people feel…

The fifth guy is a guy who loves his career and trying so hard to achieve in his company… he never been in love as he gave all his time and concentration to his career… and I would say he is just a lifeless person while he face his work all the time…

From this summary of all the movie characters… I realized that everyone will feel the emptiness in their life… everyone will go through a different life… they don’t really cherish what they have… well… u must be asking what the point that I am typing this out is? Hmm… I don’t know but I reckon I know what the director and the producer of this movie are trying to project to the audience… I mean I feel the movie… maybe I am poor in expressing the real meaning… but somehow as long as I understand it will do…

Everyone needs love and care… if u has a love one… I think u should know what to do… no point listing out what are is Dos and Don’ts while u have seen so many cases from movies and people around u… well.. I am not the perfect one… but I am learning from the mistakes… I am no one to judge or change anyone’s mind in accepting what I am thinking… but I would always happy to share whatever’s in my mind…

My condolence to all the tsunami victims… I’m glad that most of my friends are safe… still waiting news from the other 3 friends from Thailand… hope they are fine… from this incident… it makes me treasure and cherish more to everyone appear in my life… I can’t bear to lose my love one anymore… and I had promised to myself not to be nasty girlfriend anymore… u knows what? I am the nasty one in the passed relationship… Ian is just trying his best to comfort me when he is home… he gave me most of his time… he gave me lots of concentration… he protects me all the time… but guess what? I am the one who ask for more…

I think I am tired after the 8 hours flight… time to go to bed…

I had my plan for what I am going to be in 6 months time… I will try to achieve what I want… I am nobody to stop him loving anyone… I am nobody to ask him to wait… I am nobody to drag him and delay his time… thank you for loving me….:)

In the Airport

This is the saddest airport trip I ever had… my aunts and my cousins were there to send me of…

Vincent is the driver to send me, my sis, Duc and his mum to the airport… got some calls and messages from some of my relatives…

Before we drove to the airport, I’ve gone to the cemetery to talk to my dad… Is been 3 years I never come to talk to him… I wonder if he can receive the letter if I wrote him a letter and burn it… I’ve told him about Ian… I’ve asked him to guide me through… I was there for 45 minutes…

When we were driving form the cemetery to the dinner place… my aunt got the chance to talk to me… she ask me to be firm and tough… she believes I am big enough to judge and gone through my life… she told me about her love life… she had been married for 2 times… and she got to know her second husband from the net…

I was quiet in the whole journey… I don’t feel like talking… once we reach PJ, we had dinner in Taman Mayang, and then we went to the airport as I need to check in 2 hours before the flight…

Once we reach the airport we got all of our luggage checked in and we went to mc Donald’s to have some junk foods… my whole mind is him… and is only him… I was quiet and waiting for the time to go on board… in around 915pm… I, Duc and his mum had gone on board to the plane…

All of my cousins hug me and they whisper some words to me… and there u goes… the moment I hate the most… time to say bye to everyone… I will always get emotional when in this moment… but I didn’t cry until the plane fly of…

Is just a normal airport trip… but this is one of the airport trip I can’t remember because they are here with me… and I fill up my mind with all the memories I ever got with him… yes… is him…

No point repeating al the sad moments… END

Some words to share

I realized love a person is like finding a suitable shampoo. Like everyone, because of cheap, fast convenience, they use the 2 in 1, 3 in 1, and 4 in one shampoo. It’s like loving someone you’ll feel you’re a good match, you’ve luck so being together.

As a matter of fact, it’s all their excuse of using 2 in 1, 3 in 1, and 4 in 1.

When washing hair the amount of shampoo and conditioner you use, the time you spend and the water temperature are different for everyone. Just like love, which comes from being fond of each other? When you’ve found a suitable shampoo you don’t want to change forever. It’s just the same as you’ve found your lover.

I’ve found a suitable shampoo… but I need time to learn how to use the shampoo, how to keep and how to purchase…

Are already 315pm... And I am here to send in my blog before I go to see my dad in the cemetery… I am playing one of the piano piece that I used to played for my dad… he loves this piece a lot… all my cousins will be sending me of to the airport… they are not happy now and they ask me why am I leaving back to Aus so soon…

I text him last night… but I’ve got a cold shoulder from him… I wasn’t happy… I can’t blame anyone for this… this is what I’ve deserved…

I’ve told my aunt about me and him… she encourages me to come back… she has told me a phrase that floating in my mind now… Love is never having say you’re sorry… if u love a person… the most grateful thing is the forgiveness among both of u… time will prove it… if a love is not able to gone through the examine it means we are not ready for it…

Okie... got to go to the cemetery now and I need to gather in PJ for dinner… gone for now…

My mum's wedding

Hmm finally everything is over.... I miss my dad... got to go to Nilai cemetery to see my dad and talk to him... is been long time never talks to him and I miss him...

Wonder where is my daddy now? Is he doing great over the heaven? Is he with my grandparents now? Is he happy now? He got everything he wants? Well... my dad is a great dad... I used to see him cried... That was 6 years back... My eldest sister run away from house and my dad was sad... He cried... And that is the first time I saw my dad cried... the second time was the time me and my daddy watching movie, the movie is about a mother's love... I can’t remember the title and the whole story... but I know my dad cried while he was watching the movie because he missed my grandma... in mid year around June or July me and my sis dreamed that My dad getting marry with other woman.. And he left us... but I can’t remember how the dream exactly... is weird that my sis and I got the same dream... Sigh... I hope nothing changed....

Before I get this 'diary' continue... I would like to wish Kate a Happy birthday as today is her birthday... too bad I can't celebrate her birthday with her.. But I would like to wish her a happy birthday and may her dreams come true... besides that I am happy to have a friend like her... thanks for the comment :)...

Wonder how was the dinner? Well... after 5 hours... I got my hair done: P this is the first time I got my hair set up to 5 hours!!! Well... it was really nice... I love it and it suits my dinner dress... after I’ve got my hair set I went to the beauty saloon to let my aunty to make up for me... hmm I am just like the VIPs today as I went through lots of treatment for my hair, fingers and face.. I realized that it is hard to put my dinner gown on after I got my hair set and make up lol... but I got learn the skill or else I will get into trouble in my wedding dinner :P

Hmmm of coz I would like to get marry but definitely not next year... next year is a widow year and I dun want to be a widow: s...after I got everything set, my cousin had fetched me and Duc to the hotel... we went to the room we have and I was really tired and I got myself rest a while... wait... let me clarify.. the room is not only me and him but also his mum and my cousins :)... they were there to chat and make fun of each other... my cousins like Duc... they can talk well with him.. :).. My cousin sister seem to likes him... hmm... should I match make both of them? Let me think about it...

Then I went to my mum's room... she is really beautiful with her dinner gown on... she was really happy but she looks tired... I went in and chat with her a while... god... she is still asking when will be the wedding between me and Duc... then I told her that no way... unless I've try to be with Ian...no matter what I will give a try... if is fated not to be together I got to accept the fact...sigh...

then I went down to the ball room... everyone was happy and some of my cousins coming over with their gf and bf... I wish he is here too :s... so I can hold their love one like my cousins did... 2 of my cousins are in charge at the reception side...

Oh ya... I never mentioned I’ve got a brother right? Hmmm how I got this brother... he is actually one of my cousin brother... in Chinese tradition when someone died in the family there got to be a son to sent them off... my mum got no son... but she got a god son which is from my mum side.. so is not recognized by all my dad's side relatives... in my dad's funeral... they got my cousin brother from my dad's brother to be the son of my dad to sent him off.. And my brother is here too... he looks so handsome with his suit on :) he is taller than me and he is really handsome :)... but Ian is more handsome than him: P

Everyone arrived at 730pm... and I am one of the person who is in charge to bring the guest to their seat... the seat are set and they got no choice to choose to sit with who... I am really tired of walking with my heels: s... but I got to...

And so the dinner starts at 8pm.... everyone trying to get me drunk as they keep brings their wine glass to me and makes me drink: S... guess wut? I met my ex bf :)... he is a sound engineer and he is in charge the sound system in my mum's wedding... he is doing a great job as he controlled the lights as well.. I will want the similar sound systems and lighting in my wedding next time :)

He said I’ve got thinner and he keeps staring at me whole night... err how I know? Because I stared at him too...: x... dun worry no spark is on... but was just surprised he was there :)

There is one part where everyone can dedi song... and I'm one of the Dj: P... I was really having fun because is like being a Dj in the radio station... at first I was nervous... but after that it was fine...

Then we've got karaoke session... this is different from the normal one we got in some wedding dinner... this is something really special... everyone got a chance to vote... the 5 people who got highest vote will go out and sing us a song... at first there are 10 people got selected... me, my sis, Duc, Vincent, my aunt, my god father, my mum, emilia, Olivia and Justin... hehehe of coz my mum got the highest vote:P... then the other 4 people who got from the vote are my sis, Vincent, duc and emilia...

At first my mum sang 'tian mi mi'... well... I miss this song as I’ve send to Ian before... when my mum sang this song, i was missing him... then next is my sis... she sang yue liang dai biao wo de xin for my mum... and guess wut.. my sis can really sing well... after that Vincent had sang hero... emilia had sang I will always love u... and finally me and Duc had sang 2 songs which are you're the most precious and hua hao yue yuan ye... well.. Everyone was really had fun in the dinner...

And everyone was like gather together and this dinner is sort of like a family gathering... it ends at 1130pm... Then we've got the disco section... everyone takes turn to dance with me :) but I was really tired so I dun really dance much... I wish he was there to hug me and kiss me... I feel like calling him... but I am too tired to call... finally we got back to the room at 130am... my cousins were drunk but they are still able to make jokes... Duc keep protected whole night... there are girls around him but his eyes will never failed to look at me :)... and so we chat, shower until 3am... and finally everyone was like awake... so Vincent suggested to go to the mamak stall :s... and so we went to the mamak near concord... we were there until 5am... I wasn't really talk much as I am feeling tired and pain... actually I got a bit drunk too... but still as normal :)...

By the time we reach the room it was around 530am... and everyone got KO and some sleep on the floor, some on the bed, some on the sofa... and one of my cousin sleep in the bath tub lol... he was kicked out by emilia because we want to use the toilet as well :P
Around 8am... we checked out from the hotel and went home... they suggest going for breakfast... but I am really tired... feeling exhausted... So Vincent send me, my sisters, Duc and his mum home...

And here I am posting a blog before I go to bed :)
Good night and good morning... got to go now before I woke up too late for cemetery and dinner... got to be in the airport at 745pm :)
Tata... and good night :)
Have a nice day to everyone :)

Back to my room in Malaysia

Hmm is been quite sometimes never been into my room... well... I miss my room so much... got my things and boxes collected from the custom by my mum for me... everything stack in my room like the store room :)

feeling tired and restless at the moment... after the 8 hours flight is good enough to kill me... and see my mum's ceremony... quite a lot of relatives and friends are here... wonder if they dun need to work....

it was a surprise to all my cousins :P... they were real happy to see me in front of them... so of them we shouting for joy once they saw me... some of them thought they were dreaming lol... it is really a fun morning... but I am really tired now :s....

my nieces and nephew dun really recognize me... but I hope they know they got a aunty like me :x... anyway most of my relatives are crazy over my return to KL... but they were upset when they saw me cry after my mum left my house....

I din follow them to the guys house... I am not in the mood at all... wtf! Watching mummy getting marry man! I hate this the most! I am DAMN FUCKING HAPPY!!!!!!!

Is there anymore meaning when a bird flying without the wings? Is there anymore meaning if someone living without the breathing? Will there be happiness if I live without u??... Sigh...

I miss my bed... is still new... my wardrobe still nice....
I think I am the main character in this ceremony... everyone was happy when they saw me... and keep talking with me... Duc was always being with me in the ceremony... everyone thought he is my bf... I've shown Ian's pic to some of my cousins and aunties... once they saw it they said wah leng jai wor~~~ chan sai Lar.... that means wow, is a handsome guy, both of r match :).... I said nothing but just show them the picture...

Duc is now in my room helping me to clean some of my stuff into my wardrobe and relaxing at my sofa :P... thanks Duc... I am still wonder y... y ar? lol... y I would never choose him? He is a good guy right? Hmm... Something wrong with me... will check out later hur hur hur...

got a pair of night dress or dinner gown from my god father... is in pink color... and going to the saloon to set my hair soon... and then will be wearing the night dress as I love it so much... hmm how am I going to describe the dress? It is just as nice as the bride's dress lol.... well well everyone said I look good in pink :P I can't wear black or else I will look thinner :S... like skeleton :s

I hope my mum will not angry hahaha! She is supposed to be the main character but every concentration comes to me :P wuteva! Dun feel like talking about it....
every of my cousin become so handsome and so pretty!!! One of my cousin came back from Germany in last week... my god... he is so handsome now!!! :P then my cousin from Mississippi got so pretty now... I think I am the one who become uglier and thinnest :S.... anyway.. I am not into the beauty contest that cares?

I miss Malaysia man... is like a bit different from Australia... not use to it yet :P.... okay got to unpack some things and will be typing something tomorrow as tonight will be sleeping in concord hotel :P all cousins had planned to squeeze into the room... Duc is joining us as well... so will not be coming home tonight unless anything else happened :P
hmm I’ve left my laptop and my phone line to Laco they all to use... as I only bring my HDD back :) anyway mail me if u all miss me :)
is not a good weather to get marry... so is the weather sad for me as well? ...................

Moodless

Y is I saying I am mood less??... Today the whole day was not really a good day... was raining and windy... some of the ppl in IRC don't seem right at all... I am leaving to the airport soon....

Duc and his mum almost reach my house soon... I am still feeling dizzy as the effect of the sleeping pills still in the body...

Liz will be away for the whole month and I will not be able to see her till she's back :s... got to let her settle down herself once she got back too... so the earliest I will get to see her is in February :s...

In another 12 more hours, I will be in my house and watching my mum getting ready to be a bride soon... do u know what is my feelings at the moment? No is not good at all... Maybe u will not know how I feel... Lots of ppl said I should not be selfish as my mum needs a companion for her life too... and some of them said if U dun like it y r u going back? Come to think about it, she is a great mum... because of us she had to sacrifice lots of time and joys in her life.... because of me she got to work for my god father... she could just got marry and sit at home as this is a rich guy... as what am I thinking now? Yes there is still something stuck in my mind... will I call a stranger 'father'? Y is that so soon to get marry while my dad had just passed away in 2 years time? Y my mum will fall into this guy? Are all the questions that pop in my mind whenever I stuck myself to think about my mum and the family...?

I am the 'black sheep' in the family... black sheep is not means that I am bringing bad luck or whatever... but I am the most special and most luckiest one.... I got the love from most of the friends, cousins, uncles and aunties... and I got sponsored by my god father to Australia to live the life I want and they want... I had everything similar with my dad's temper... I've got the highest education in the family at the moment....

I always consider myself as the most fortunate one.... but no matter what life still goes on... got to face lots of things in life that different from my sisters too...

Sometimes I am just thinking would I have a chance to go into the mental hospital? I am really envy of them when they can just live in their own world... they can just get themselves into the craziest part of their life... well... is just a thought... sometimes things will not be as perfect as u think...

I am not on my MSN at the moment as I don't feel like chatting... wonder how is he now? Is he doing great? Having fun with his friends? He got a new 'gf'? He had changed his friendster in looking for a friend only... wonder if him really wooing another girl? Sigh... I know I should stop it! Y is I thinking again? Is none of my business anymore! :s...
I am leaving now... If I got the chance I will come online once I get home... or how... Take care... thanks for all the concerns and care from ppl who got my blog's webby from me :) thanks a lot and I do really appreciate it...

I've packed everything

Finally I got everything squeeze into my luggage lol... well well this trip is a short trip so basically everything in the luggage is the souvenirs lol....

I dun want to stay so long in Malaysia as I dun want to see that guy or I dun want to see my mum to be with that guy! I still miss my dad and I dun allowed any other guy to touch my dad's things... or use my dad's things.... I hate that!

Just got to listen to 2 Chinese songs... both songs being translate into English already

first song is from li shen jie - chi xin de que dui
thinking of using one cup latte to make u drunk
so I can make u love me more
u will never know the feeling of admire
as u got somebody else from the beginning
when I saw u and him I realize that my love is just a stupidity
u will not know the hurtful of my heart as u will never feel it before
the hurt that I had u will never know
and why am I forcing myself to love everything of yours
u rejecting it straight away and I will just shut the door to let myself cry
even though I know is impossible to let u leave his world
but I am still waiting for the appearance of a miracle
and until that day u will realize there is someone who love u and upset for u

another song is from sun yan zi - ni bu shi zhen de ai wo
issit the end between u and me?
pls do not use the silent to answer me
I feel so strange
is like the needle get into my heart
u will never talk about that
and I guess u r trying to hide from it
u r not hard to express yourself
but u r just waiting something to make it clear?
I think u dun love at all
when I am used to be abandon and is not freedom
people who are in love will never know at all
real feeling will always the most hurtful
I think u dun love me at all
when the caring being neglected
the real love will has lots of choices and I can still give u lots of freedom
finally I realize that love can make someone grow up in one night
the immature love makes me feel insecure and scared
if there is not spark in this love we got to learnt o let go

there is no one that I want to dedi both songs to, but I quite like both songs.. And I got it translate badly lol...
I am still wondering who he dedi his nick message to :S.. Sigh...
anyway got to go out for dinner and will be back to chat a while before I leave to air port :) gone for now :P

Just to share some memories between him and myself

Just think of the first month anniversary we had.... in that night, everyone gathered in Ym to sing songs for us...

That was the first time he sang 'ni shi wo lao po' by richie ren... for me... I was really impressed and I was touched as well... he is English educated and he is not really good in mandarin, but he had practiced the song to get everything pronounce correctly... and I reckon that is the most fluent mandarin I ever heard from him....

Besides that he had sang me Bon Jovi - Thank you for loving me.... and I had replied with I live my life for u by firehouse... He likes the song as well and I had sent him the song... He wanted to download the song himself as it is faster for him... but I insisted to send to him as it is much more meaningful if I sent it to him...

He always loves me, protect me, care for me silently... and I know I am asking for too much at times... I am just a bad gf in that time....

And there u goes... our first month anniversary celebrated online with some friends... I miss that moment.... sigh....

In the second month's anniversary we got argued... but we get back together very fast...
in the third one... is just the day I asked for break up....
I don’t know y I just feel like trashing out everything about him... maybe I am listening to this song:

That's When I Love You

When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u
I love u just that way
To hear u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when you’re mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u
I love u anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match your clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u, I love u
More then u know
And when u forget that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u, I love u anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

Ohh that's when I love u, when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what

Ohhhh no matter what

he used to sang me the song... and after he sang it... he send me the song and lyrics... and so... there are some memories between him and myself....

Earthquake, Tsunami

Just finished reading news form the net... got to know some places affected by the earthquake in Malaysia :S...
sorry to hear that, if it's affected your place... sigh....

My condolence to those victims from the earthquake... :S... was pretty sad to hear this disasters... I don’t know why I had cried after I read the news....

Just got replied from sj, ah nic and derr as there are alright... still waiting for the reply from mum :S.... wonder if everyone is alright back home :s....

Now the only person is Kate... she got no contact number and wonder if she is alright :s... I hope she will be fine.... phew!!!!! She is alright and she is online now :P

I just text him as well... but haven't got his reply yet :s... I hope he is doing fine too.... just got his reply back... and he said he was ok, still alive.... phew~

Early in the morning the new housemate (Mark) had clean up the kitchen and I was too tired to help out... anyway I will be cleaning it whenever I finish cooking....

jie left and went back in the morning... she got to leave early as she is going out with her ex bf at night for dinner....

Laco knock on my door early in the morning as he left his keys in the room and the door was locked... I don’t know why I got no expression when he told me his door was lock and his keys are inside the room....

Today is a very cold day... is raining in the morning when I was reading about the news... :S.... sometimes the weather just as same as my feelings.... anyway I hope will be fine soon....

Hmmm anything else? I guess not at the moment... All my worries been cleared... hope everyone in Malaysia will be fine soon.... take care...

Memory that I don't wanna delete

He is just like the memory in my mind that I dun want to delete... yes... is good to have someone to stuck in your mind... and is bad to have someone stuck in your mind too...

I wonder why I had lost my interest to guys. Hmmm... Well I guess my mind can't fit in anyone now... yes, I admit that still him....

Sometimes I am just trying to accept the fact that I am not his anymore... why do I mind every single thing he did when he come online? Sigh...

These days I had parked my nick in IRC... I am just waiting for the time he will come online and I know if he come online and I am online he will be watching without typing anything...

Sigh.... just can't stop thinking of him.... what is the best way to forget a person? I am not a machine... if I am a machine I will be glad as I can just click on 'format' and get everything format from my mind... sigh... being silly of keeping every single memory I had with him... every single jokes we had made.. Every single chat we had....

when I read back the log where we chatted since august... sometimes I wish I could turn back time and stay in the time where I got jokes with him... not his gf but a close friend I suppose... we joke a lot and we make fun of each other... no! I am not saying I was regret being with him... but I guess everyone would like to go back to the sweetest memory right? And so do I... I just wish to go back to my sweetest memory with him... I consider that time was sweet as we never had big arguments... we can tease each other a lot...

U knows after since we move further in our relationship... we always had arguments.... yes is good to learn from mistakes... I’ve learned everything after I broke up with him... I know is not point to blame myself anymore... but I’ll never being so stubborn, ego and nasty to my bf anymore.... a song that really suits my feelings and I wish to dedicate to him is

The Reason from hoobastank...
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

this is one of the song we shared in out relationship... yes... he sang for me before... he was really sad when I asked for broke up for the first time... I remembered we had the first argument... I couldn't sleep well... even if I asked for break up I still call him... he had talk to me and comfort me... I just hold the phone and cry like a baby... he sang songs and make me sleep before he sleep... yes... he is a reason to change myself... he is a reason to let me grown up... thanks KKY....

a relationship that has grown in the heart.... no point of saying sorry while I am still repeating the same mistakes to hurt him...

Every single corner had filled up with his memory....
wish u have a nice day.... thanks for reading my blog again....

I am feeling dizzy

3 sleeping pills is really killing me :s... I ate 3 sleeping pills last night and I slept until now... I can't remember if I dream or not but is really K.O....

feel very dizzy at the moment... will crawl back to the bed soon... another 12 hours to go :s.... hmmm... he changed his msn nick to dun fall away and leave me to myself... dun fall away and leave love bleeding in my hands.. I wonder who he wants to dedi the mesg to... anyway I know I am not belong to him anymore and he is not my bf also...

No point keep thinking and dreaming about him.... I know whoever reading this blog care a lot of me... thanks :) I know what I should do... dun worry I will be fine... just need sometimes to put myself in a situation where I can 'pick the bone from the egg' :) when I got myself okay.. Then I will be alright....

He is consider a good guy that I met... he is cute, caring, lovely, thoughtful, he respect and love his family... and a lot more to go... but with my condition now I got to crawl back before I fell from the chair.. :x...

Anyway gone for now and good morning to everyone :) wish u all have a nice day after a short break during the weekend...

A blog before I sleep

hmm... whole mind is him... not used to it when I online and din see his nick on msn... before I went out with friends just now I was online and he wasn't there but now he is online at the moment...

I will just type out everything on my mind before I got to sleep again...
hmmm

I got my things clean up as my rooms and the kitchen was kind of messy when I am home... so I got all my things keep in one of the kitchen rack... then I got all clothes hand nicely... well I love my new clothes.. I got to buy new one because I am getting thinner and thinner :S...

Christmas is just like my new year.. Bought lots of new things... anyway am not going to list out again... as u can see from my previous blog...

what I had did just now... well... I got all things clean up and I went out with friends for drinks... I wasn't drinking any alcohol as I will be back soon... so I need more rest...
I will be back for mum's wedding soon... and I will in Malaysia for only 2 days... will come back Australia for my new year eve as I got plan for that already...

will be back with Duc and his mum... looking for a partner for the dinner... as I dun want to Duc to be my partner and all the aunties and uncles will start crapping here and there :S...

hmm... been prepared well to ready to go on board... I am feeling sick and tired now and hopefully I will be the one who keep eating and watching ppl in the wedding... not really in the mood and not really want to bless them :S...

I am not a good daughter... I know that... And I admit that... but what to do?
I chatted with his friend that night and at first he was telling me 'he' is waiting for me... but I felt he got someone else... Just a feeling... I don’t know y... I just don’t know y... whenever I think of him I break into pieces... okay I will skip until tomolo and express it out again...

jie is keep asking me to bed now :S she can’t sleep without me sleeping :s... sigh.... anyway she is really a funny and cute one as she took care of me a lot.. thanks jie :)
hmm I suppose Duc will come to surf on my blog soon as he saw me typing this blog in the morning :) and Duc here is a message to u... thanks for reading my blogs.. But stop telling anyone about the secret I had like me and Laco.. no one knows besides my friends who come to surf on this blog.. And I dun want to have any huu haa form them :s...
alrightz... enough for now.. good night everyone and may everyone have a pleasant dream
p/s: if 'u' r reading this... please take good care of urself and rest well... miss u... sigh....

My Boxing Day

956pm 26th dec
I just finished my dinner and just back from shopping...
hur hur I’ve spend lots of money today in buying souvenirs as well as my own stuff... let's see what I’ve bought...

I’ve bought a pair of sandals, a pair of boots, 2 pants, 2 skirts, 2 blouse, 1 scarf, 2 pillows, 2 books ( about cocktails), key chains, cosmetics sets, 2 bags, 2 pair of ear rings, 2 pairs of bikini, some underwear and perfume... besides that, I had bought a pajamas for my god father, some abalones for my grandma, one watch for my grandpa... some cosmetics sets for my mum, few tops for my sis and some toys for my nieces and nephews... and some chocolates for other relatives (just in case they ask for it) basically are everything for my close families only :) nothing much..

that’s all for my shopping... and is tired of shopping as well... then me and jie went to play game at arcade and guys went to their own shopping and drinks...
everyone gather at the main entrance at 630pm... And we were really tired... then we went to get some foods back before we came home... right after that we come home with all the shopping bags...

Once we reach home there is 1 France guy and 1 American girl in my house.. And they were using my stuffs in the kitchen... I wasn't happy with that and I was frustrated so I came into my room and jie was here to accompany me... she knows I was upset...

Then Duc and Laco came in as well and we had our dinner in my room.... y in my room? Because we are talking bad about that couple... there were not really friendly to us and we are not happy with them as well :S... they came in today only they did lots of laundry man... wtf..!

Anyway enough of it... I just came in and type something that I am unhappy of... and I will write something else that are in my mind later as I want to make a sign in every of my belonging so they can differentiate those things are mind, and I had put up a sign to avoid people to use my stuffs...

Well... Gone for now... will be back later to type out something else later...

Morning in the Boxing Day

Last night I’ve been chatting until 4++am... even though I leave my pc in 4 something I am still rolling over on the bed as I feel pain :s.... anyway I am not sure what time I felt asleep... but I had a nice and sweet dream....

What is the dream about of coz I will not tell out... as I heard ppl said if I tell out the sweet dream it will not become a true... so I want to keep it and I hope I will be real...
my time now is 1144am.. As jie woke me up when she woke up just now... I am still feeling tired but maybe of my pleasant dream I am really a bit energetic now...

jie is showering so I got to wait for her and take shower later.. so I got this chance to type out what am I thinking at the moment....

Never been stop thinking and dreaming about him... but what is the point while he is staying only on my mind and dream?

Will be buying some souvenir soon :) grandma wants me to buy her some abalone which I will check out later in the shop... hmm... I wonder what is so nice about abalone as I dun really like it... :x

Laco wrote me one sms and he wants me to go out for dinner tonight with him, and only him... I dun think I will leave jie and Chris and Duc alone as they are here to celebrate this festive season with me....

Last night when I watched meet the fockers, i felt a bit annoying as he keep talking next to me :S... I wasn't concentrate on what is he talking about but I was concentrate on the movie.... feeling not really comfortable as Duc sitting at the left and Laco at my right... yes... sometimes when 2 guys trying to protect u, u will feel secure and fun... but when someone is trying to make u decide something.. That is really a hard part where your heart is just somewhere else...

Hmm what talking me? I don’t know as I am still feeling sleepy now... no matter what this is just a place to trash everything out from my mind... Nothing much though... no matter u understands or not this is just the place for me that i writing 'diary' of my life my mind my dreams or whatever....

Okay I got to stop here as jie is here watching me typing... she is waiting for me to get ready keke... I dun even brush my teeth yet... So I got to move my a** into the toilet soon hahahahahaha.... hmmm I will write something else when I am home later... But I really hope I will have a great day as I wish to have a sweet memory...
tata for now and thanks for reading my blog again... will be continue when I am home later :)

Christmas

Hmm my time now is 2.07am 26th December...
Wonder how I gone through my Christmas? Well I woke up in my time 330pm... As I slept in 745am... :S was really tired... sleep on the same bed with jie and she damn funny... when she wake up she blow on my ears and then pretend nothing then I go to use my bolster and throw at her lol...

Once we woke up we were still feeling tired and bored... Duc woke up earlier and he went home to get changed and his mum had cooked something for us and he brought over to my place...

Hmm want to know who Duc is? He is currently my friend; just a friend... is he potential to be my bf? The answer is NO... I’ve really try to be with him but seriously... something that is not click means is not click anymore... so we remain as friend lor sigh....

Okay after that Rica and her bf asked if we want to go to crown for fun... so we went to the crown at first they went to hunt for food... seriously Rica is really wasting lots of food... she actually ordered lots of food and she spend us the meal...

she ordered sashimi, sushi, roast duck, roast chicken, chicken wings, fried quail, fried noodles, fried rice, sesame prawn, black bean beef and some veggie...
and so we had our meal in crown food court, due to the pain at my wound i got to eat something light which I got myself some sashimi only...

Before we had our dinner we went to the arcade outside of the cinema for some games... me and Laco always play in a team and we won most of the game :P
after the games we went to bought the ticket movies as we watched meet the focker.. It was a comedy and quite funny too... We enjoyed the movie though...

after that we came down and we went to the pub to have few drinks... right after that my dad's cousin which is the one who older than me 1 week had called me and he said he want to meet me and we met in crown as well...

Right after he met me he asked me if we want to go to pub, I need to come home to leave my stuff so we came home a while...

I've got 500 dollar from kai yeah as my Christmas gift... and I’ve got original DVD Lord of the ring part 1 2 3 from Duc....

and then we came home and we got change and went out again... unfortunately the clubs and pubs are full and I was not that well... almost got fainted so we came home and chat in living hall...

I think that’s it for today if I left out anything I will continue tomolo as I am feeling unwell... I nid to get some rest now... gone for now... :)

Okay once again merry Christmas! And enjoy the boxing day sales later :)
signing out form the blog

My Christmas Eve

6.33a.m 25th December...
yes I just came home from the beach... Besides tired... Am feeling a bit drunk as I drank some red wine at the moment...

Hmm... wut I did in my Christmas Eve... I wasn't happy and feeling a bit disappointed of how I gone through this Christmas eve compared with last few years...
hmmm I think my sixth sense is quite strong now... anyway am not going to type about that now.. As I will gone blank soon...

I grilled chicken wings, fried yippee, blanch prawns, fried veggie, and have had raw oyster with Tabasco sauce with lemon juice.... that is the dinner for the Christmas Eve...I can’t really eat and i got myself some Asian greens because my wound is pained...
Laco was late for dinner and everyone start eating with out waiting for him and he was a bit upset of that... but after a while he was alright and I think he missed his family a lot...
after the dinner we clean up the dishes and the kitchen and we got sweet potato soups as the dessert...

Since I am the one who did the pre-preparation, so I got myself prepare to go out.. Right after I got myself prepare Laco was still on the phone with his mum and we were waiting for him for about 45 mins... I was really no mood and tired... as I feel pained... but I just feel like getting drunk...
he was unhappy and he shut his room door once he got into the room and so I knock his door and asked if he want to join us to crown... then he got prepared and we gone to crown...

Once we reach crown there are indoor events and we were there to celebrate the Christmas eve and welcoming the Christmas... and so about 1230am the event ends and we went to have some drinks... is really crowded and I hate it as when I am standing somewhere there are guys touching me like octopus...:S... and so I am trying so hard to squeeze out... after that we went to had cheesecakes and some tea.... I was trying to call him to wishes him as I think of him out of sudden but he din pick up my call...
then we came home with some Mc Donald’s and we had red wine and some ruski lemons again.. We drink up to 6 bottle of red wines and jie was drunk... :S...

They insisted to go to see sunrise and so we got ourselves prepared at 530am and we walked to the beach to see the sunrise... today is a cold day highest degrees is 20 degrees... I love cold weather but since jie din bring her thick jacket I got to borrow her mine and I got myself a thin jacket.... I was freezing as I assume it will be fine when we are at the beach... Unfortunately it was cloudy and windy...

We sit at the beach side and jie fell asleep.. Laco confessed to me and he asked if I want to be his gf... I told him no as I missed someone else....
and so we were quiet and we sit there to wait for the sunrise... today is really a nice sunrise and is like the sunset i used to see... is really beautiful... but since I am freezing I suggest to come home..

And here i am at my come blogging... And jie is sleeping at the moment...

There are still glasses and wine bottle to be clean up and my room is a bit on mess because they play with my pillows and bolster just now....

Duc is sleeping in the living hall as he was drunk as well... okay I think I got to go now or else I will be crazy of being too tired...

Err I think that’s it for my Christmas eve and will be typing something when I wake up later... gone for now...
good morning, good night, and merry Christmas...