Want to be alone

Want to be alone… under the starry night

Want to be alone just with you…

I can feel you staying with me forever

I can see you smile

Want to be alone under the starry night

All the stars still shine I want to share this precious time

Just being with you….

This is a song where I listen from one of the movie some times ago… our life is just a miracle…

Some people will think of commit suicide just to leave the suffer life… some people would like to commit suicide because they failed to succeed in their career, some people want to commit suicide because they lose all of the treasures in their games, some people commit suicide because they felt empty in their life… some people commit suicide because of avoiding the fact in their life.. Some people want to die because of avoiding their responsibility in life…

There are so many kinds of people in this world gather in this universe… after I talked to my dad... I asked myself what myself want. What am I doing to improve my life? Why am I still alive while those who suppose to be alive had passed away?

Look at those victims in tsunami… I don’t think they want to die, I don’t think they had done what they want to do… I’ve so many things that I wish to do... But did I start any of them? Am I guiding myself? Am I giving myself lots of reasons to delay everything in my life?

I always blame my family of giving lots of pressure, I always blaming I’m going through a life that I am not suppose to gone through in my age… did I ever think who am I without them? Did I ever feel thankful for what I had now? I wonder if everyone had a chance to try all this on their own. Is everyone having a fortunate life like mine?

Love is just part of the life… different people will treat love differently… come across to think about a movie… there is a guy who treat love as a game… when he is interested he will play the game until he feel bored… once he is bored he will just leave it and change to other game…

The second guy has a good girl friend... She is not that pretty but she’s trying her best to change herself to suit her boy friend but her boy friend keep finding a reason to leave her… she being patience to her boy friend, cook for him when he is home, clear all his debt… try to achieve his dream as she can…few days before their wedding, the guy realized that he has to love the girl and he tried to change… unfortunately he had passed away in an accident…

The third guy is a very lucky guy, he and his wife worked in the same company, but he got fired due to the economy failure in the company… and his wife remains to work in the company… because of building up the career and earn more money for living she work very hard for the company… because of the work she neglected her husband… but she is trying so hard to cheer her husband up whenever she is home… due to some reasons her husband met his ex girl friend back… he always meet up with his ex girlfriend and he got to know that she needs a lot of love… he is trying to patch back with her… but in one of the meeting, she told him that she is envy of his wife because she has a good husband like him… and she asked about all the good points of hers… after he told his ex girlfriend about all the good points about his wife.. He realized that he never been love her for what she is but keep blaming her for what she had done… and so he ran back and try to get his wife back… and he did it…

The forth guy is a guy who loves game… is only games in his life… he got a good girlfriend… his girlfriend will always accompany him when he is playing game… and got nothing much to talk about this guy because he keep playing games in the movies without bothering how people think and how people feel…

The fifth guy is a guy who loves his career and trying so hard to achieve in his company… he never been in love as he gave all his time and concentration to his career… and I would say he is just a lifeless person while he face his work all the time…

From this summary of all the movie characters… I realized that everyone will feel the emptiness in their life… everyone will go through a different life… they don’t really cherish what they have… well… u must be asking what the point that I am typing this out is? Hmm… I don’t know but I reckon I know what the director and the producer of this movie are trying to project to the audience… I mean I feel the movie… maybe I am poor in expressing the real meaning… but somehow as long as I understand it will do…

Everyone needs love and care… if u has a love one… I think u should know what to do… no point listing out what are is Dos and Don’ts while u have seen so many cases from movies and people around u… well.. I am not the perfect one… but I am learning from the mistakes… I am no one to judge or change anyone’s mind in accepting what I am thinking… but I would always happy to share whatever’s in my mind…

My condolence to all the tsunami victims… I’m glad that most of my friends are safe… still waiting news from the other 3 friends from Thailand… hope they are fine… from this incident… it makes me treasure and cherish more to everyone appear in my life… I can’t bear to lose my love one anymore… and I had promised to myself not to be nasty girlfriend anymore… u knows what? I am the nasty one in the passed relationship… Ian is just trying his best to comfort me when he is home… he gave me most of his time… he gave me lots of concentration… he protects me all the time… but guess what? I am the one who ask for more…

I think I am tired after the 8 hours flight… time to go to bed…

I had my plan for what I am going to be in 6 months time… I will try to achieve what I want… I am nobody to stop him loving anyone… I am nobody to ask him to wait… I am nobody to drag him and delay his time… thank you for loving me….:)