Saturday, June 17, 2006

Nothing special happened

Today is the first time I feel the time passed so slow after sometimes… woke up in the morning and went to buy father’s day pressie for MD with JK… was so restless because had a hectic week again…

Everything went wrong in each day of this week… I have to tell myself… don’t worry this will be a better day… but whenever things went wrong we will just being frustrated but didn’t blame anyone for that… but I anyhow feel there is something that I didn’t realize I should improve…

My hours will be increasing… workload will be increasing as well… besides that my pay will get increase as well… awaiting for the proposal from my manager about it… if it sounds interesting I will try to accept… but if things gone out of my way I will probably resign from here and concentrate in helping JK…

Have had few customers spoke to JK about my work… they suggest him to get somebody to be my assistant or else I will get stressed out… am appreciating that… but JK prefer me to approach him myself hehe…

Saw Karen yesterday and she was depress… the company chosen the other temp than her… but when things went wrong she is the one being blame most of the time… she had a bad time working in here… I am really happy to know her… wanted to hug her when she burst into tears… but she was smoking… so I don’t really want the smoking smell on my body…

Nothing much I feel like doing in this weekend besides watching some dramas or movies… then will rest me well because I didn’t bring back any paperwork for this weekend…

Oh ya! I got a big envelope of stamps :D… was busy trimming those stamps neatly to put in my collection box :D… alright time to rest now… wishing everyone have a great weekend…

Friday, June 16, 2006

Funnny

The lyrics to the song to be sung in the tune of “You’re Beautiful” by James Blunt



My job is stupid,

My day’s a bore,

Inside this office,

From 8 to 4.



Nothing ever happens,

My life is pretty blank,

Pretending that I am working,

Pray I don’t get canned.



My cubicle, my cubicle,

It’s 1 of 62,

It’s my small space,

In a crowded place,

Just a six by six board booth,

And I hate it, that’s the truth.



When I give a sigh,

As the boss walks by,

No one ever talks to me,

Or looks me in the eye,

And I really should work,

But instead I just sit here,

And surf the internet.



And my cubicle, my cubicle,

It doesn’t have a view,

It’s my small space,

In a crowded place,

I sit inside there too,

And sometimes I sit here nude.

p/s: thanks to ah Blue!! :P at least I laugh a bit today...

Good Very Morning LOL

Yeah Yeah!!! 3.11am and I got everything done

specially thanks to Ken Ken because he wake me up :P... lucky I got him to wake me up and ensure I am awake or else I might be sleeping in this hour too haha...

actually I might be sleeping in this hour if I didn't spend my first hour in chatting and tell out my nightmare LOL...

Still okay because I had few hours sleep before... still having headache but feel a bit released because at least I've got my things done...

go go go ale ale ale...

lately... some people that I care and concerned are having mood swings and moodless... so no matter I can help or not... I wish you all will be better la :D...

alright enough of crapping early in the morning :P another 45 mins to prepare to work... guess is time for me to go off now :P

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Damn it

Damn! Just because of someone being smart enough to tell an idiot my address I am feeling insecure now… he came to my house this morning when I wasn’t at home… he is one of my net friend and I knew him for about 2 years…

He got to know my friend coincidently and I am not sure when he knew my address… when my housemate came back a while ago he told me there is someone who look for me in the morning… what a despo! I just hate to see him haihz…

Having bad headache now… need to rush off paperwork :(… this week is not smooth at all… still thinking where did I went wrong and I want to try my best to rectify it… sigh…

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

C.R.A.Z.Y

I seriously think I am in a unwell condition -.-... ate so many things within 3 hours

- puddings
- seaweed salad
- squid salad
- salmon roll
- yong tau foo
- asam
- drink lychee juice

What I'm feeling now? hehe feel like vomitting and feel like there is a baby in my womb :D

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

明白为什么有些事情, 我们怎么想也想不通吗?
真的好想明白..
为什么我怎么做也不对..怎么思考, 答案还是一样..

连自己都不知道自己要什么的我, 有时真的很想让它顺其自然的过..
但事情的发生跟我想的却不一样..
顺其自然的有时还会超乎寻常.

算了..不想了..
想多了, 也只多了一个"烦" 在我的心里纠缠.

纠缠久了, 放弃的心态就更重了..
不想结果是这样的..

但事情已经发生到我怎么走我的路也不对了..
真的不对了..

若我怎么攀
最终攀不上绝岭
宁愿我跌倒于险径
祈求能换你总会有反应
说得很清楚
已经将温暖售罄
怎么一句句
我都听得似幻听
一开始烧得高兴
比火把都虔诚
一颗心不交给你
让谁带领

差一点我就消失于无形
差一点脆弱的身体
由无限变做零
最怕我让眼泪未停
原谅我的感性
不爱我你都讲得太动听

若要讲分手
等于分解我愉快
如毫无目标的板块
浮游令肉体改变了姿态
若会飘得起
记得掌握我动态
终于心碎了
碎片飞得那样快

知不知这种境界
比火海都难捱
知不知匆匆一吻
别离太快

太动听


p/s: when I was just about to sleep back again, this song catches my attention and repeat once before I sleep back again... went through a hectic day, wanted to cry so much but I didn't, I choose to sleep... but I didn't slept well... lots of phone calls, but I just can't be bothered to answer... I guess my family rang me as well... well, I will explain to them tomorrow...

I think I am just being too harsh... as I said before I will feel the other's feelings as well... that's exactly the punishment for myself in being harsh sigh... anyway 1 more hour to rest again before working again... nite...

Monday, June 12, 2006

你和我之间

有点真实
有点虚拟

有点靠近
有点遥远

有点清楚
有点朦胧

有点熟悉
有点陌生

这就是你和我之间
这是最真
也是最假

不曾到访我的心

是否站的位子不同,我们的心就没有了视线。

背后?左方?或许我们都只看着前面。

距离有多远?是近是远根本就不是问题所在。

是心......

我根本不曾在你的心出现。

你也不曾到访我的心。

虽然......两颗心都有哪一点空隙。

遺憾 · 珍惜

遺憾的 總是在失去後才發現

最美的 總是在錯過後才發現

不在手上的 卻一直想追

握在手上的 卻被你放開

或許曾經因爲渴望你,才被你視爲平凡的不屑

卻在因爲放手後,才明白可貴

不屬於你的,何苦執著

遺忘

學會遺忘 讓記憶隨風而去

不再沉淪 不再陶醉於一個人的愛情 夢想

編輯的故事 失去主角的參與 只有退檔

矛盾

人類永遠都是最矛盾的動物,這樣子說會過分嗎?

昨天有位朋友對我說,很想忘記以前的事。

我就問是什麼事,結果就從頭到尾對我細説一遍。

如果想忘記的話,又何必對我說呢?想忘就忘吧!不要再說,就說就越忘不掉~

會 幸 福

如果云是白的,我相信思念是純潔的。

如果風是暖的,一定是你的祝福散播在風中。

如果天是藍的,那會是我的心為你留着翱翔的天空。

如果草是綠的,我知道你曾經灌溉這。

如果地是寬的,一定能夠感應到你那邊的腳步。

如果路是長的,那會是可以通往身在遙遠國度的心。

如果你是快樂,我可以忘記孤寂床單。

如果我是微風,一定可以瞬間感受那睡枕的夢。

如果夢會實現,我會把心中的十年秘密掛在床頭那。

夢與幸福

在泛黃的思念里,你乘着流星離去。

我也只是個沒有依靠的孤魂,冷颼颼的軀殼,是一個沒有感情的人偶。我已經撐得很辛苦,撐得不能再撐。撐到好想放棄自己,甚至變成行尸走肉。

你的出現讓這些日子的等待有了回應。現在我把你握在手心,擁在懷裡,收在心底,聆聽呼吸,隨着心跳,翩翩起舞。

因為你,我不再木訥而是色彩,不再凍僵而是豐盛,不再缺陷,我變得完整。我想告訴你,“我想你因为。。。爱你。。。所以我等你。”不管我多愚笨或是不值得,我懇求你。。。讓我等下去。。。

哪怕我得到的只是一個擁抱,一個微笑,一個回眸又或着。。。只是回憶的假象,我只是想欺騙自己。好在往後的千千萬萬個夜晚,我可以憑着不真實的倩影繼續催眠自己。

繼續在沒有日出的長夜裡等待曙光。。。

请想想以后的日子

人会伤害其他人,不知在什么时候。往往到了无法挽回的地步才能悔改从前自己那曾经的气愤无情地发泄在其他人身上,深深地打击了朋友们的心灵。因而造成一辈子的遗憾,有些时候更是内疚。

不了解真正事情由来经过是引起大部分的误会,姑且产生了好多的冲突,最后成为了一把锋利的刀子,刺进了无辜的心。

在有意或无意伤害其他人以前,请想想以后的日子…….

现在的我已经与以前截然不同了

曾经,有一条小溪流着在一处大沙漠的边缘。
它听见一个声音说:“离开这里,继续走。”
但是小溪恐惧新奇与未知的事物,害怕变化。
虽然它很想拥有更多的溪水,过着幸福的生活,
但却不希望改变,
不想冒险。
但这声音又响起:“若是不敢踏出这一步,
你将永远不会知道自己的极限。
要相信自己在新环境中也能适应良好!
走吧,继续流。“
于是小溪决定继续往前流去。
不过这却是件苦差事。
沙漠越来越炎热,
小溪最后还是被蒸发。
上升的小水蒸气在空气中凝结成云,
飘过沙漠上方。
云朵飘荡好几天,来到沙漠后方一面大海。
雨水澎湃而下,
小溪现在的日子过得比它以前想象的美满多了。
好像在家轻柔的浪花上,
它微笑地向着:
我多次改变自己的生活形式-
现在的我已经与以前截然不同了。

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Feeling Blue

The last week whole week was a hectic week for me as well… not only because of work but because of my health condition as well… luckily is not as serious as last time and I am still able to continue working…

There are so many things to be done yet the time is so short… finally finished most of my paperwork and going to rush through again next weekend… gonna work in next weekend too :(…

Managers and colleagues said my permed hair looks old, so I went back to the salon and straighten my hair back hehe… got my hair back to straight like last time… this weekend am having the long weekend… choose to off in Monday yet still get pay for that :P… JK approved my leave and so I can rest myself at home…

There will be another heavy work load week next week.. not idea why they have so many functions lately… yesterday argued with my ex bf… through sms… had a very bad day yesterday…

First got the news of my diary being sad… then got to know my friend was having financial problem yet he choose a very stupid way that making me so frustrated… after that argued with my ex through sms… he still owe me RM3k, he told me he is getting marry so I replied if he is able to get marry means his financial status is okay already… he should be able to return me money after so long… he said I am a calculative and materialistic girl… but it’s been so long? If I am one I should have got the money back already -.-///

Went out to have some fun with my friends but two of them was having argument and end up finish the outing early… consider a bad day eh? But nothing much I can do anymore… today itself was pretty dull for me… woke up in the morning then sms diary see if he is alright… after that sms that friend and he got no replied after I send one to asked a very stupid question…

Is very heartbroken to know someone I concern doing stupid thing… then don’t feel like staying at home.. got myself prepared and went to the salon and had something to eat… met the robber who robbed me few weeks ago… didn’t do anything besides avoid him to approach me again…

Nothing much really want to update now, still feeling the blue from yesterday…