sick alde

Am feeling very sick now :( worked too hard last night, had function from 12.30pm to 4.30 pm then from 4.30 to 8.30pm, and the last one was from 8.30 to 10.30pm…. once I finish I feel very bad and JK send me home straight away… didn’t manage to do the emcee yesterday because I can’t talk much with my very bad sore throat….

Besides sore throat I have fever and flu too… so is kind of killing me… can’t talk to anyone… especially when mum called I can’t talk besides holding the phone choking with my tears… feel sad because I felt mum’s tone turning down when she was so worried about me…

Had breakfast with Vio and Kev… so sad to see them behaving so strange to each other… sigh… I somehow feel deep in their heart they weren’t happy about that… sigh… but nothing much can be done anymore… hopefully there will be a brand new chance for them to start over again…

Anyway going out to grab some pineapple and stuffs… mummy told metohave some fruit and try to avoid not eating anything….

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I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Here to blog again

Wanted so much to type out my blog, but because of being busy of work and lack of sleep… so had been neglecting my blog for sometimes… I did tried to typed out but failed to post it out… so never try for second time again…

Been very busy at work.. I do online in IRC but most of the time is just parking instead of chatting there hehe… I found that I prefer to read and observe more than chatting nowadays hehe…

Wasn’t happy in whole week because Tom and JK were arguing because of me… they are now competing among each other… but all I did is just avoid to be alone with anyone of them… yes both of them are good… but I devoted my time to work, I feel like working is more important now… I enjoyed working with them… but since they argued i don’t think I enjoy it anymore…

Finally kev and vio divorced… they asked me to join them for trip, but I rejected because I don’t know how am I still going out with them while seeing both of them are sad deep in their heart… sigh… I know they do love each other but no one willing to sacrifice what they are having now so they have to let go each other…

Got to know few good colleague during the week too… been working for like 61 hours in last week… it was really tiring but can’t say much because there are so many functions on… am lucky because I am able to take my Monday off… 2 more days to go… :P…

Nowadays my colleague call me princess at work… yes they do treat me like a princess at work… but I somehow feel that it is because of JK… I don’t think things will become like this without JK…

Anyway… am still feeling sleepy now… gotta gone back to bed again… been sleeping the whole day today… happy for that :D….