Someone's watching over me

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

p/s: specially for you... My one and only lovely Dboy in my life... thank you for entering my life... thank you for loving me, thank you for being there for me all the time, there are endless appreciation for you to hold me going through this life... even "through the fire" :P... dear, without you I might be the grumpy, nasty, annoying and wandering around without direction... Having you in my life it's like an angel send by god to me... and that is you... dear, I love you so much...

Specially for mummy

Sometimes human will only appreciate things that come to the end… is that the nature of human? Or it’s just written in the god’s order… maybe it’s a little bit late to meet each other here… or maybe it’s just an endless time…

I would want to hold the time forever, just to do whatever I can… just to tell you how much I care… please forgive me for the clumsiness in handling your heart… I miss you mum... I wish you have a happy mother's day...

I am unhappy

I am feeling down at the moment and sometimes I just can't really think of the best way to handles things. another few hours will be seeing my colleague to work for her last day. I am feeling really unhappy because when she is leaving my happiness will gone in the same time too. I love working with her and I felt really bad that I can’t do anything to make her stay anymore…

It happened two weeks where there is one function that had been ordered and mentioned no nuts in the food. So I was the one who organized staffs fro that particular function. I put her name to in charge or food preparations. But in the function day itself she wasn’t doing the food. And there are nuts in some food. Someone got allergic and admitted to hospital. Client wasn’t happy for that.

When my boss was handling this issue with the client I wasn’t around and then they settled in between them. Boss taken the paperwork and he insists she was the one who did the food preparations and he issues letter and sack her in Thursday. When I was back from the meeting outside I tried to explained to my boss but it seems that decisions has been made and there is no turning back. He said to me she was in the age or retiring anyway. Because she is 67 years old. For me this is not the right way at all!

I wasn’t happy and I really unhappy for this. I love working with her. I learned lots of things from her. Extra knowledge that I won’t get from my normal work and most of all she is being accused and I just can’t get the right to get things right at all!

Today she rang me in the morning and thought to ask me to go over her place to hang out a bit. She picked me up in 12.30pm and so we went to her place to hang out with her kids and grand children. We had some fun time together and I felt sad deep down because I won’t know when I will have a chance to do that again.

Then she took me to crown and had dinner together. She has the Portuguese style roast chicken and then I had steak. As for dessert she has black forest cake and I had strawberry and vanilla cake. It wasn’t a pleasant dinner for me at all because it wasn’t only expensive but it taste horrible. There’s a little time I’ve spend with her today.

Deep down my heart now feeling the sadness that I can’t explain… I feel like crying but I can’t cry. I am worry that I will cry out in Monday. Then again I am now managing an online streaming radio at the moment. I had a meeting in Saturday but some of them wasn’t there fro meeting. I am really disappointed as I mean I know this is all volunteer thingy. But isn’t it suppose to be more responsible in things we are doing? Or I am just asking too much? So yesterday I was really pissed off with some of them that showing they don’t really care. But someone trying to comfort me and he said I had to be softer to them. I remember that and I tried to do that today. But this person actually came in and keep typing without really reading what I really want to express. I felt really frustrated. I mean why there is such people in the world?! Argh!

Sometimes I wonder am I being to strict or am I asking too much. Or this is just the stupid world I have to face…