2 days before my birthday

Feeling exhausted, unwell and moody at the moment…. Having itchy throat, flu, and fever and shivering… so yeah… received all the wishes, messages, presents and surprises party today…

Went to work today from 8.30am to 12pm… when I first reach the workplace, manager and my colleague was looking at me smiling all the while… I felt uneasy because that is not really usual for me… after I put my bag and get my things packed, get myself started to work, once I walk out from the office, my managers, colleague and some of the friends from work place start singing a birthday song for me… and got a cake that specially made by my chef to me :D… got some presents from them as well…

About 12pm, was thinking to go for gathering which is how it was mentioned by my ex schoolmates… so one of them picked me up from my workplace to a restaurant in Lygon Street… then we had lunch and chit chat as usual… after a while I got another cake for my birthday and everyone was sang me a birthday song too… was pretty surprise because most them never remember my birthday one…

Then came home with all the presents and flowers… got call from jie to pick up things form her place… came home, left my things in the room and walk to jie’s house… got some parcels and cards from friends too… so yeah were pretty surprise to get them…

I have no idea why I don’t feel like celebrating my birthday at all… I got no mood to go out or rather I should say I don’t really want anyone to celebrate for me :s… just feel like sleeping sleeping and sleep the whole day…. Anyway I would like to thank whoever had already wish me happy birthday because you might not get to online in weekend… thanks a lot…

And there you go… I’m getting older now :S…. I think I better crawl to my bed before I feel worst here… tata for now….

女人心事

东区的咖啡座幽暗的沙发里
总有几张熟悉的脸
那种聪明带点防卫的气质
想放弃却又不甘心的样子
越过她的肩膀空洞洞的视线
摩登女子灰色心事
那种以为自己什么都可以
喝了酒却又哭得像个孩子
我听见(爱我的人在哪边)渴望的泪
我看见(伤心的故事一遍遍)我的从前
曾经我也痛过我也恨过怨过放弃过
在自己的房间里觉得幸福遗弃我
如果没有分离背叛的丑陋
怎么算是真爱过
请你试著相信一爱再爱不要低下头
别怕青春消逝就不信单纯的美梦
我在这岸看着你游
为你的坚持感动
你会的有一天会幸福的

无赖

我间中饮醉酒很喜欢自由
常犯错爱说谎但总会内疚
遇过很多的损友学到贪新厌旧
亦欠过很多女人

怕结婚只会守三分钟诺言
曾话过要戒烟但讲了就算
梦与想丢低很远但对返工厌倦
自小不会打算

但是仍唯独你爱我这废人
出错你都肯去忍
然而谁亦早知不会合衬
偏偏你愿意等

为何还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我笑著捱
就算坏我也不忍心偷偷作怪

没有跟的野种飘忽的命途
谁像你当我宝甚黱也做到
旧爱手中一疋布在这刻写句号
只想跟你终老

在地球唯独你爱我这废人
出错你都肯去忍
然而谁亦早知不会合衬
偏偏你愿意等

为何还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我笑著捱
就算我也不忍心

还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我拼命捱
换转别个也忍心偏偏作怪

品冠-又一年又三年

很想告诉你
你的话我都没忘记
就连那轻微的呼吸
也都会烙在我心里
眼里的忧郁
告诉我你还没忘记
还穿着他送的外衣
掩饰着脆弱的情绪
他还试着他还真的
回头来找你
不能放弃不能忘记
他曾经深爱着你
但已经又一年又三年
又是一个世纪
又春天又夏天又是落叶满地
你还守着你自己
不让幸福再靠近
我可以放弃你忘记你
不再眷恋着你
又一年又三年又是落叶满地
只要等到你是你
只要你快乐我会祝福你

Another day has gone

Feeling better now… last night was horrible because my face got swollen, got wisdom tooth growing so it is really painful which I can’t talk much and can’t even taking any food in… then I couldn’t bother much and went to bed as early as I can…

Woke up this morning and feeling horrible… have to go to work as yesterday already got the call from manager telling me what I have to do for today -.-//// got myself some salt water to drink and reduce the pain…

So yeah today is a rainy day, have to walk in the rain to deliver some stuff… Patrick told me he wants to pick me up today… so when I finished work there are not miss calls on my phone… so I thought he is not coming and thinking to walk to the train station to go home like usual…

When I got out from the workplace, I saw someone familiar in front of the gate LOL… and yeah that is him… he walked me to the car and he doesn’t want to let me hold the umbrella… I felt so uneasy… but luckily the umbrella is a huge one LOL… so I won’t get to squeeze with him when we are walking in the rain :x…

He being very gentleman and open the door for me and make sure I am comfortable LOL… then I thought he will fetch me home straight away but he said he would like to go rounding at some places… I like a bridge called west gate bridge, so I got him to get me there… unfortunately we see nothing when he was driving on the bridge because it is raining…

So he brought me to the bay side and all of the places that are consider romantics places in Melbourne LOL… I felt something must be happen that time… so I keep quiet through out the journey… suddenly I was brought to a very beautiful bay side… he stopped his car and asked if I want to be his girlfriend… my heart was beating so fast, I am a bit nervous… then I keep quiet and turn around without looking back at him…

After few minutes, he starts the engine and my heart was feeling the joy ness of ‘finally’! LOL… so he was quiet and no one bother to start any topics… after a while he break the silent and ask “ Joey, tell me about myself” I answer “ I don’t know about you well” he was so disappointed, I do feel deeply sorry to him…

So he continues the journey and it stop raining… since he knows I love the west gate bridge he did the rounding on that bridge again and show me some nice scenery as well… there goes my 2 hours and 30 minutes with him… finally, we reach in front of my house… he get out from the car quickly and went to the back of his car, then he opened the door for me and yeah, he was holding a bunch of flowers… I look at him and smile, he kissed on my cheek and wish me happy birthday, then I ran into the house quickly LOL…

I am not sure if he feels that I have someone in my heart… so yeah there you go another day of mine of hurting someone again -.-//// anyway my internet is not that stable so I better go and rest now… good night everyone…

Finding myself that wandering in the darkest side of me

This is actually a mood less week for me… not only because of my own problem but also others… friends and people around me seem to be moody as well… especially in Friday… Friday has a cloudy morning… when I went to work I bought the newspaper to read in the train…

You wouldn’t believe it is so sad and the environment seem to be so serious in some places… one Melbourne guy had been executed in Singapore because of trafficking the drugs to pay off the debts… yes, he had done wrong but he doesn’t deserve to die because of this mistake that he had done…

I was praying and thinking there might be a miracle happened in life… maybe Singaporean government will try to stop him from executed… unfortunately they didn’t… anyway the sad moment continues, his body is back to Melbourne today… I felt for his mother and brother of losing their loved one…

Well… besides that incident many things happened in my life… nothing that I would really consider or look into… another 1 week I will grow older :s… but I don’t feel like celebrating my birthday… Joey, Ken, Serena, Rica, Carol, Jeff, Rick, Cherry, peach, Venice and the rest asked me to go out with them but I think I can’t be bothered anymore… not in the mood… I used to be happy and excited since the first day of December but not now anymore…

Was supposed to update my blog few days ago… but I just couldn’t get myself adjust back to normal… -.-/// maybe I do think too much but yeah feel like finding myself that wandering in the darkest side of me…

Anyway gonna clean my room and get some rest before going to work tomorrow again… gone for now…