Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Moody

Finally I fall sick again… not that I am wishing to fall sick, but been feeling not well here and there for a while… been working too hard too… today, I fainted down in work…being send to the hospital and doctor advice that I have a good rest before that I start working again… if I want to work now I can only work not more than 8 hours…

With that decision, we had a small meeting with all the managers… they decided to make me work for 5 hours a day and rest for the rest of time at home… not really happy with that decision, but I have to take it because of my body condition…

Pretty moody today because am feeling weak while I felt like myself is like a handicap person… can’t get rid of that feeling, it’s just a nightmare for me… thinking to get another job soon without letting anymore know… I can’t make myself sit at home after working for 5 hours a day :S….

So that’s basically what happened today that cause me feeling horrible…. Anyway I think I might need to rest on my bed now… so gone for now…

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Another Saturday has gone

Today it’s quite a relax day for me to go out with Serena, Rica and friends… we were in the city for Singaporean cuisine… it was quite nice to eat there…. And the best thing is I found their service is the best in town… after that, we went to shop around the city… Myer is having sales, but I didn’t manage to buy anything as I am too tired to carry them…

There are window display at Myer… there are not as nice as the one I saw in last few years… or maybe… different mood will judge things differently?... we had girls talk in the whole day today… talking about life, career, boyfriends and friends… they said I’ve changed by the way of how I spend money… I used to be a girl who will plan on what I am going to buy and not spending too much when I go shopping… unfortunately, I’ve changed lately… the way I think is I have to indulge myself after hard work in weekdays…

Besides that, I’ve seen too many cases that, we won’t have the chance to do certain things in life once we’ve missed it… who knows, I will die tomorrow? And if I die, do I ever make myself happy in my life? Did I ever enjoy in my life? I don’t want to work too hard just to collect money without enjoying it… I do keep money for emergency purpose or for the future… but I just don’t want to torture myself for being too stingy or saving too much…

That’s the thing they said I’ve changed… used to consider a lot when I wanted to buy things but no now anymore… I’ve no idea if it’s a good thing to change or not, I hope it is… nothing much that makes me stay up late now… just woke up from sleep and couldn’t manage to sleep back and have no idea of what’s bothering me…

I think instead of start crapping here I better off to read the book that I’ve bought… it’s about dianetics… and we did stress test today too… found that life is always stressful for us…