Happy birthday MM gor

Yeah, today is my MM gor’s birthday… Happy birthday gor… hmmm when I woke up today I was a bit tired and sick… went to work and come home… the rainy day making me feel so empty and lonely…

Walking on a street alone, without wanting to call anyone out or doing anything… and I got myself home at 1pm… once I reach home I checked the mail box and got some bills and some letters for my housemates…

Went to see doctor just now because I’ve got cold… anyway getting better now but lazy to talk as I got ulcer in my mouth and flu in the same time… even when I am sleeping also I feel pain :s….

Oh well… nothing much to type till I get better… tata everyone…

P/S: Sylau ask me to pass his wish to u also... he wants to wish u Happy Birthday :P

A story to share

My husband is a scientist by profession, I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders. Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I have to admit, I am getting tired of it, the reasons for me loving him before has now transformed into restlessness. I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive and exquisite when it comes to relationship and feelings, I yearn for romantic moments, just like a little boy yearning for candy. And my husband, is a contrast from me. His lack of sensitivity, and most of all, his inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce. "Why?" he asked, shocked! "I am tired, there aren't reasons for everything in the world" I answered. He kept silent the whole night, seeming to be in deep thought the whole night with a cigarette lighted at all times. My feeling of disappointment was getting intense, a man who can't even express himself, what else can I hope from him? And finally he asked :" What can I do to change your mind?" Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes, I slowly answered: "Here is a question, if you can find the answer to my heart, I will change my mind. Let us say, I love a flower at a mountain cliff, and we are both sure that to make you pick the flower will cause death, will you do it for me?" He said :" I will give you your answer tomorrow... ."

My heart just sank by listening to his response. The next morning, he was not around, and I saw a piece of paper with his scratchy writing, underneath a glass of warm milk, It goes... .

Dear, "I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to further explain the reasons " this first line had already broken my heart. I continue reading. "You can only type on the computer and always end up messing the programs in the PC, followed by your crying in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs. You always leave the house keys behind, I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you. You love travelling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to lead you. You always have the cramp whenever your "good friend" approaches every month, I have to save my palm so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy. You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my
mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom. You always stare at the computer, and that is not good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow older, I can help to clip your nails,and help to remove those annoying white hairs. I will hold your hand, stroll down the beach, enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sands... tell you the colour of flowers, just like the glow on your young face...

Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do... I would not pick the flower, and die.." My tears fell on the letters, and blurred the ink of his hand writing... and I resume my reading... "And now, dear... that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied with these answers, please open the door of our house, I am waiting there, with your favorite bread and fresh milk...

I rushed to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, with his hand holding tightly on the milk and bread... . Oh I am sure no one ever loved me as much, and so now I have decided to leave the flower alone...

That's life, or some say, love, when one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness. Love shows in any form, even a very small little corny form, it has never been a model, it could be the most boring form... flowers, romantic moments is only the superficial form at the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands... and that's our life... love, but not words win the arguments...

Love vs Time

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others, including Love.

One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last possible moment. When the island was almost totally under Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help. Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat.
Love asked, "Richness, can I come with you on your boat?"
Richness answered, " I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere."

Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out,
"Vanity, help me please."
"I can't help you," Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat."

Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, Sadness, please let me go with you." Sadness answered, Love, I'm sorry, but I just need to be alone now."

Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, "Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him.

Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name.

When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder. Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?" Love asked.
Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered,

"Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

Three little words

Three Little Words (Author Unknown)
There are many things that we can do to perk up and strengthen our interpersonal relationships. Yet the most effective involves the saying of just three words. When spoken or conveyed, these statements have the power to forge new friendships, deepen old ones and restore relationships that have cooled. The following three-word phrases can enrich every relationship.


I`LL BE THERE:
If you have ever had to call a friend in the middle of the night, to take a sick child to hospital, or when your car has broken down some miles from home, you will know how good it feels to hear the phrase "I'll be there." Being there for another person is the greatest gift we can give. When we are truly present for other people, important things happen to
them and us. We are renewed in love and friendship. We are restored emotionally and spiritually. Being there is at the very core of civility.


I MISS YOU:
Perhaps more marriages could be saved and strengthened if couples simply and sincerely said to each other "I miss you." This powerful affirmation tells partners they are wanted, needed, desired and loved. Consider how ecstatic you would feel, if you received an unexpected phone call from your spouse in the middle of your workday, just to say "I miss you."


I RESPECT YOU:
Respect is another way of showing love. Respect conveys the feeling that another person is a true equal. If you talk to your children as if they were adults, you will strengthen the bonds and become close friends. This applies to all interpersonal relationships.


MAYBE YOU`RE RIGHT:
This phrase is highly effective in diffusing an argument and restoring frayed emotions. The flip side to "maybe you're right" is the humility of
admitting, "Maybe I'm wrong". Let's face it. When you have a heated argument with someone, all you do is cement the other person's point of view. They, or you, will not change their stance and you run the risk of seriously damaging the relationship between you. Saying "maybe you're right" can open the door to further explore the subject, in which you may
then have the opportunity to get your view across in a more rational manner.


PLEASE FORGIVE ME:
Many broken relationships could be restored and healed if people would admit their mistakes and ask for forgiveness. All of us are vulnerable to faults, foibles and failures. A man should never be ashamed to own up that he has been in the wrong, which is saying, in other words, that he is wiser today than he was yesterday.


I THANK YOU:
Gratitude is an exquisite form of courtesy. People who enjoy the companionship of good, close friends are those who don't take daily courtesies for granted. They are quick to thank their friends for their many expressions of kindness. On the other hand, people whose circle of friends is severely constricted often do not have the attitude of gratitude.


COUNT ON ME:
A friend is one who walks in when others walk out. Loyalty is an essential ingredient for true friendship; it is the emotional glue that bonds people. Those that are rich in their relationships tend to be steady and true friends. When troubles come, a good friend is there indicating you can "count on me."


LET ME HELP:
The best of friends see a need and try to fill it. When they spot a hurt they do what they can to heal it. Without being asked, they pitch in and help.


I UNDERSTAND YOU:
People become closer and enjoy each other more if they feel the other person accepts and understands them. Letting your spouse know in so many little ways that you understand them, is one of the most powerful tools for healing your relationship. This applies to any relationship.


I LOVE YOU:
Perhaps the most important three words that you can say. Telling someone that you truly love them satisfies a person's deepest emotional needs. The need to belong, to feel appreciated and to be wanted. Your family, your friends and you, all need to hear those three little words. "I love you."

I love you in 100 languages

English - I love you
Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumen
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a
Catalan - T'estimo
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg
Farsi - Doset daram
Filipino - Mahal kita
Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha wau ia oi
Hebrew - Ani ohev otah (to female)
Hebrew - Ani ohev et otha (to male)
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szeretlek
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Heyo
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - Tave myliu
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita!!
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te ubesk
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing'I Love You')
Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux - Techihhila
Slovak - Lu`bim ta
Slovenian - Ljubim te
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
Swedish - Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
Tagalog - Mahal kita
Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)
Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Vietnamese - Anh ye^u em (to female)
Vietnamese - Em ye^u anh (to male)
Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu
Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba - Mo ni fe

The nature of love

Once when we were sitting at the edge of a
swimming pool, she filled the palm of her hand with
a little water and held it before me, and said
this:

"You see this water carefully contained on my
hand? it symbolizes Love."

As long as you keep your hand caringly open and
allow it to remain there, it will always be there.

However, if you attempt to close your fingers
around it and try to posses it, it will spill through
the first cracks it finds.

This is the greatest mistake that people do when
they meet love...they try to posses it, they
demand, they expect... and just like the water
spilling out of your hand, Love will retrieve from you.

For love is meant to be free, you can not change
it's nature. If there are people you loves, allow
them to be free beings.

Give and don't expect.
Advise, But don't order.
Ask, but never demand.

It might sound simple, but it is a lesson that may
take a lifetime to truly practice.

It is the secret to true love. To truly practice it, you
must sincerely feel no expectations from those
who you love, and yet an unconditional caring.

May be this is applicable for all of us.......

To the person that I Loved most (if you are reading
this);

Just wanna let you know that I am glad that I have
found you...

If tomorrow starts without me by your side, dont
think that we are far apart
for everytime you think of me,
I am right there in your heart

I love u...

Love is like a butterfly

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best. Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person." It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be. Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry." Not "where are you", but "I'm right here." Not "how could you", but "I understand." Not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are." The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them. How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain. It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you. My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.

Love is like waiting for buses

You know, love is just like someone waiting for a
bus.When the bus comes, you look at it and you say
to yourself "eeee...so full...cannot sit down, I'll wait
for the next one."

So you let that bus go and wait for the second
bus. Then the second bus comes, you look at it
and you say, "eeee...this bus is so old...so
shabby!" So you let that bus go and again, decide
to wait for the next bus.

After a while another bus comes, it's not crowded,
not old but you say, "eeee... not air
conditioned ...better wait for the next one."

So again you let the bus go and decide to wait for
the next bus.
Then the sky starts to get dark as it is getting late.
You panic and jump immediately inside the next
bus. It is not until much later that you found out
that you had boarded the wrong bus!

So you wasted your time and money waiting for
what you wanted!
Even if an air-conditioned bus comes, you can't
ensure that the air-conditioned bus won't break
down or whether or not the airconditioner will be
too
cold for you.

So people... wanting to get what you want is not
wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other people a
chance, right?
If you find that the "bus" doesn't suit you, just
press the red button and get off the bus (as simple
as that).

Hey who said life is fair??? The best thing to do is
be observant and open while you scrutinize the
bus. If it doesn't suit you, get off. But you must
always have an extra something which you could
use for the next bus that comes.

But wait... I'm sure you've had this experience
before.
You saw a bus coming (the bus you want, of
course), you flagged it but the driver acted as if he
did not see you and zoomed past you! It just
wasn't meant for you!

The bottom line is, being loved is like waiting for a
bus you want. Getting on the bus and appreciating
the bus by giving it a chance depends totally on
you. If you haven't made a choice,
WALK! Walking is like being out of love. The good
side of it is you can still choose any bus you
want... the rest who couldn't
afford another ride would just have to be content
with the bus they rode on.

One more thing.... sometimes it's better to choose
a bus you are already familiar with rather than
gamble with a bus that is unfamiliar to you. But
then again, life wouldn't be complete without the
risks involved.

But there's one bus that I forgot to tell you about -
the bus that you don't have to wait for. It will just
stop on its own and will ask you to come inside
and take a free ride for the rest of your life.

You Never Lose By Loving
You Always Lose By Holding Back

So emotional

It's either black or white that's right
We're makin love or in a fight
Sometimes you make me so blue

But then it feels so good I knew it would
You know the way to make me crazy
I want to give it to you

You make me feel so emotional
I can't let go I'm so emotional
I'm sinking deep into an ocean full of you
I'm so emotional

It's Sunday again

Know what? I’m controlled by my mind and thoughts… why am I saying so? Oh well… I felt so restless for the pass few days... been stayed up for the whole night... do you know what I’ve done for the pass few nights?

Stay up for crapping, play game, and do some of my work… maybe I am stressing myself a bit… I had homesick since the last few days… I received email from mum, I am happy that she learned to online… I felt so warm when I got the email from my mum, I’ve been stop talking with her since last December…

Missing daddy whenever I listen to ‘somewhere out there’ I wish and I know daddy might be somewhere watching me go through my life… sigh… that is just the missing daddy part anyway… and I am alright, even though tears are still flowing down when I think of daddy, but I know I shouldn’t have disappoint him in anything I am doing ….

Been ignored my net friends for sometimes… it’s been long time never really actually chat with them… if you all surf on this blog, I would like to say I never forget you guys, but instead of sitting there chatting all the time and keep repeating what is my life and what happened actually, I should have learned to handle it well.. I am turning from a girl to a lady… so I should be more independent...

The people and feeling in this house is not the same as like time anymore… seldom get to talk to Rica, maybe I hurt her and maybe she realize I am locking myself up not to talk to anyone in the house… she avoided me herself lately… I just can’t do anything as I know if I approach her again I will get trouble for myself… as for Chris, he will always lock himself in the room to online… besides the cooking hours or the movie time, he will never bothered to come out from the room… people are getting fed up with him of not washing dishes, not cleaning anything in the house… and I wonder if he ever wash his clothes… since he moved in… I never seen his clothes in the hang dry area at all… then about Marc, he had broke up with his girlfriend, and he looks down all the time… he was trying so hard to get out of the house most of the time… anyway, he is busy of his study and work now, so he seldom got to spent time to think about her… and last but not least about Laco… he had been complaining about Rica, about the house, about everything in his life… he got a girl friend in Slovakia, but he is meeting another Czech girl here. Whenever he asked for my opinion I would tell him to think what if his girlfriend did that to him… he used to be the best housemate in this house… but I felt that he is so far away from me now… he is not the one I knew before… sigh…

Serena had moved far away from me… she is now studying in Monash University… she had been coped up with her studies and exams, so she got not much time for me like last time anymore… Cherry they all had been busy applying for the PR and looking for job now… met up with them once in a while and not frequent as last time anymore…

Jason had been blacklist from my house, I had enough from him anymore… getting fed up of him… anyway isn’t going to talk about him. Joey is still the same and he is taking care of me now… sometimes I was asking myself, is he the right one? I have been asking myself for quite sometimes, but whenever I tried to say yes, the answer will turn to no automatically, maybe it’s in wrong timing? Sometimes choosing someone you love is just like how u choose your clothes, when you got to choose the right size and right type, you might not get to choose the right colors… all we need is a right timing?

The weather for last 3 days was hot, I was being so frustrated because of the hot weather, luckily it has rain just now… and is still raining out there… I love the raining days… I wish to go out to play under the rain but I am having a cold now, so I have to wait :s… oh well... I guess I am tired now, so I got to stop here for this post… will be posting again when I have the inspiration and mood…

Thanks for reading and have a nice day… take care…….

Friendster join horoscope

You and - ChEeZzy iaN - have smooth sailing ahead.

There's a funny little push-and-pull going on with the two of you at the moment. It might feel like a gentle tug-of-war, or like a yo-yo going up and down (and looping out in a few tricks) or like a teeter-totter seesawing back and forth. The key thing is to remember that it's all part of the fun, the sweet tension between who you are individually and your shared bond. Don't be afraid to exercise those independent muscles; the differences between you are way more exciting than the similarities right now.



hur hur I got this from my friendster -.-

I was born to love you

I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day...

I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day of my life

You are the one for me
I am the man for you
You were made for me
you're my ecstasy
If I was give every opportunity
I'd kill for your love

So take a chance with me
Let me romance with you
I'm caught in a dream
And my dream's come true
It's so hard to believe
This is happening to me
An amazing feeling
Comin' through -

I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day of my life

I wanna love you
I love every little thing about you
I wanna love you, love you, love you
Born - to love you
Born - to love you
Yes I was born to love you
Born - to love you
Born - to love you
Every single day - of my life

An amazing feeling
Comin' through

I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day of my life

Yes I was born to love you
Every single day of my life

Go, I love you babe
Yes, I was born to love you
I wanna love you , love you, love you
I wanna love you
I get so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely
Yeah, I want to love you
Yeah, give it to me