What will I do

I'm not really sure of the words to say
If only you knew that I feel this way
I wanna give my heart to you
Show me the way that you want me to

I know for sure there's a place for us
I'm counting the days till I feel your touch
You come to me when I dream at night
When I'm with you it will be so right

If you could see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side

Ohh ohh ohh ...
I'd be yours
You be mine
Ohh what will I do

I'm gonna be around

It's been so long since we took the time
to share the words
From deep inside us
we're in our own world spinning our wheels
But you know how I feel
Well since the first time I took your hand
my love for you
Has just been growing
you always seem to understand
You know how I am

Chorus
I'm gonna love you `till the end
I'm gonna be
your very true friend
I wanna share you ups downs
I'm gonna be around

When you're alone `coz I'm away
don't be sad
Don't be afraid
I'm gonna turn my thoughts to you
Like I always do

Chorus
I'm gonna love you `till the end
I'm gonna be
Your very true friend
I wanna share you ups and downs
I'm gonna be around

Catch you when you fall
hold you when you're down
Sharing every moment
I wanna show you all I do
I believe I found a miracle
in you

Chorus
I'm gonna love you `till the end
I'm gonna be
Your very true friend
I wanna share you ups and downs
I'm gonna be around

p/s: this is one of my favourite song... I would like to dedicate it to all of my close friends such as Jaja, Jie, Gor, Derr, SJ, Kate and Nic... thanks for being there for me all the time

Superman

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me

Time flies but I am still the same

I am suppose to be sleeping now, but when I am thinking too much I can’t get to sleep well… maybe I am having homesick or maybe I am missing daddy too much… got to chat with my buddy today… we chat a lot about our fun time in study, our problems in life and our family…

I feel like crying since I woke up today… my whole mind is daddy, I miss the time where I watch movie with dad… I am the daughter who didn’t talk much to daddy… I don’t know how to communicate with daddy, but lately, when I am sitting alone or I feel like talking to someone, I will sit there and start asking if daddy hear me… I will try to talk to daddy… I don’t know if he hears that…

It’s been almost 3 years… but everything seems to be fresh… I will I am so far away from daddy, I feel there are so many things that I never do with daddy… I can felt his feelings of struggling for the family… the more I think the more I miss my family…

I am worried about my sister’s children… they are just cute little kids that are growing in a poor family… I do really wish I can have a stable life and help them of… I really don’t wish to see them being spoiled kids… it’s like out of sudden I am feeling everyone’s feeling…

I feel I am lucky enough to have what other people don’t have, but I am sad of my siblings that they don’t get what I’ve got… the feeling is like so sad that I can’t do anything about it… all I could do is work harder to earn money and help them out…

I tried not to think too much I did spend time on work and spend time outside to avoid thinking it, but when I went for medical checkup again, it’s like health giving me problems in life… I don’t want to think about it…

I went to buy things and came home, I felt so empty today besides keep talking to make myself busy… but once I stop I can’t control my tears at all… sigh… life…

Love letter to my wifey

致 [我最深愛的女人] ﹐

[你知不知道] [你是我老婆] [想你是臨睡的習慣] [我們的愛] 就象 [季候風] ﹐我一直都覺得 [這個冬天特別冷] 難道這一切都是我 [一廂情願] 。。。 [愛你不是兩三天] 就是[每天愛你多一些] 。。。

[我願意] 為你就像[童話] 故事里的王子與公主﹐也許我就像個[大孩子] 但是對你的[誓言] 與[承諾] 是真的。。。 [我是真的付出我的愛] 你一定要 [堅持到底] [因為愛] 我想[天天看到你] 。。。

我感激上天給我的[恩賜] 因為[你很好] ﹐我總是在[下雨的時候會想你] 如果可以的話我願[愛你一萬年][ 永遠] 都不要和你[離別] ﹐ [我愛你] 就是那麼的[無法阻擋] 。。。

也許你會覺得[天真] 的我總愛說[天長地就] ﹐[愛我久久] ﹐但是我不想[我們的愛] 有[缺陷美] 的像[爛泥] 一樣。。。[如果有一天] 我有機會看到[月老] 的話﹐我會讓他知道我[不再讓你孤單] 。。。

在這[愛的領域] 我是[絕不能失去你] 的。。。[如果愛你只有這一次] 我會把[我的心] 也交給你﹐讓你好好的[保管] 。。。 [愛妳的我] [不想你也難] [因為你的緣故] [愛你的心] [不願意] [一個人的遊蕩], [從今夕到永恆] [你身邊永是我] [永遠愛你的人] [如果能多一天][ 每個人都想愛你] [請為我想想] [把我放在你心上], [honey honey] [You're The One] [我要的是你] [一切很美只因有你] .

[不知不覺] [我是如此深愛著你] [生生世世] [不要只愛一點點] [Because I love you] [Somewhere In My Heart] [一生守候] [和你在一起], [Right here waiting] to build up our [love paradise]

[I will always Love U]

Love, Joey




So yeah this is basically a rough love letters that chain up with songs title… as what I promised to my wifey, I gotta write this to her… and there you go.. specially for you, it is not as good as what I expected, but I couldn’t get any concentration and inspiration to write it… sorry about that… anyway enjoy reading it!

Another dull day

Nothing much to update today… quite tired since I woke up today… received 2 moon cakes from Venice… one is the green tea skin and red bean filling, another one is tiramisu flavor one… actually I was excited when I received it, but I was not happy when I saw the tiramisu one because I don’t drink or eat food with coffee flavored one… anyway I am appreciate of the moon cakes…

A bit sick of Linda where she can talk to me naked in the house… I was out there to received the parcel and then she open her room door to talk to me, I felt uneasy when I see her naked even though I am a girl… she loves to hang her underwear in the bathrooms, she can’t take care of things that is belongs to others and a lot more that are making me sick…

Nothing much to expects and do besides works… anyway looking forward for this weekend to celebrate my ototo (younger brother’s) birthday, he is my Japanese housemate that celebrating his 21st birthday…

Will be going for medical tomorrow again… so will sleep earlier tonight…

Tuesday

I felt so lost and so painful now… and yeah I am broke again LOL… woke up late today and still feeling a bit tired so not going to work… after that, got myself finish the final part of one of the report…

Then when I get online I feel like chatting but I don’t see any of my friend, so I park my nick in IRC then continue my work, while playing monopoly LOL… when Nick is on, I asked to play gunbound with me… then we had few games… when he went for his lunch I got myself some drink as well…

Feel a bit bored and feel like eating nando’s chicken so I got Linda to buy me some when she is backing home… so that is my dinner LOL… she bought me half of the chicken and I was full at the first time eating it… then I continue after a while… after the dinner I got myself to rest a while and chat a while with some friends…

About 8.30pm, Linda asked to go out and have a drink with her… since I got nothing better to do, then I went with her for a while… came home around 12am++… was so bored and tired, but Jason called me when he reach my house and went to chapelli in chapel street…

We were chatting happily in the café, but out of sudden he shout “ Oh Shit!” I was like errr… didi do something wrong or say something wrong? LOL… then I look at him, and he knows I got shocked, he explained that he got his tap water on and he had left the house for so long… then we got to go back to his house immediately…

When I reach his house, I got slipped and we keep laughing for that… the water had flow till the front door LOL… I got my bottom wet, and start helping him to clean the house… LOL… we were having fun with the water LOL… well I was surprised as his house is really tidy… I think I can’t beat his tidiness LOL…

Erm after that he asked if I want to continue to have some tea in the café, but I was too tired so I asked to come home… so yeah I reach home around 3a.m… siting in fornt of computer listening to jie singing LOL…

Okay la.. I think I am stuck and lost without any direction… so yeah get me do anything f u need any help… have a nice day everyone :D

LOL

I was surfing something for my housemate, and suddenly bakkutteh.com come into my mind... and I tried to open a browser and check that web out... finally I got this

Bakkutteh.com domain is available. If you are interested to this domain, please contact us with this online form.

LOL... well should I get that domain? LOL I don't know why i felt funny and keep laghing :D

Funny

人生就像大便，一旦冲走了就不会再回来；人生就像大便，怎么拉都是那个模样，可是每次又不太一样；人生就像大便，有时候拉的很爽，有时候却拉的很难过；人生就像大便，你永远不知道会拉出个什么东东；人生就像大便，想要怎么结果，就要先怎么栽；人生就像大便，随时都可能遭人唾弃.......

This is actually the message from Jonathan in my Ym LOL... it is really funny so I would like to keep this to read in anytime :D

誰叫我

誰叫我
作詞：林夕　作曲：周華健　編曲：Chris Babida

誰叫我花不起要花的揮霍　誰叫我捨不得滿瀉的工作
誰叫我捉不緊滿足的感覺　那脆弱的感覺

誰叫我打不開太多的打算　誰叫我捨不得歸家的溫暖
誰叫我浪漫後怕負累　道別後加倍留戀
難道是要怪我是個平凡人　難道是要怪我為愛恨入神
難道是要怪我或抱怨這世界沒有滿分

誰叫我寂寞夜會怕冷　談情時會怕說　漆黑中更加怕軟弱
但是別告訴我　平凡人少不免　永遠會怕得太多
誰情願有了愛沒有了我　誰情願有過去沒有結果

誰叫我倦極後要發洩　忘形時會喝醉　在事後拾回自我
但是別告訴我　無聊才想得太多　誰叫我