Final decision made

This morning was feeling exhausted because got few phone calls that actually rang early in the morning and woke me up… so… got some decisions make up and not going to think anymore…

At first I was thinking to go back to work, but since I am not going to face that dumb dumb… so I better not force myself to stressed myself up… rang manager and big boss up today… told them I am not going back there anymore…

If they really want me to go back it will end up something worst I guess… I will be tough and a bit firm to that lady… and I will not tolerate in any circumstances… so now I am actually giving myself some times to rest and work only 8 hours a day… if there is any OT it will be 8.5 or 9 hours… depends on how busy the day shift is…

Never being in such situation before but I really wish to go somewhere else to see more learn more and explore more… anyway I think is time to say after the rain I’ve seen the rainbow :P…

Alright since the internet is so ‘FAST’ now… I better stop it and I just hate it when people just don’t blardy use their brain to think… the usage went over the limit again that is y is so ‘FAST’… sienz!

Stupid me

Today was really busy at work… got OT at the end of the day because of some last minute functions… so got to stay back and finish up some of the functions before I can go home…

When I was busy preparing some food for functions, my big boss rang me up… the conversation went like this LOL

Big boss : morning Joey
Me: morning xxxxxx
Big boss : how are you today?
Me: good, anyway I am busy now can I talk to you later?
Big boss: okay just a short talk, can we?
Me: no, I am rushing for the food now (thinking what the hell he is going to bull shit me again)
Big boss: could you please start working from Monday night? I hope you can go back, you’ve done a good job, xxxxxx( the lady who works with me and big mouth one) thinks she works very good, but I think she did blardy good….
Me: err, what’s the point telling me this for?
Big boss: I just want you back to work; can you please do me this favor?
Me: I am about to ring up and say no to u and xxxxx( my site manager)
Big boss: well, I hope you could do me the favor till I found somebody else, then if you are interested I can transfer you to other site as well…
Me: hmmm… okay… I really happy with the offer but I think I have to ring xxxxx to talk to him first… if things still the same, no point going back also…
Big boss: I will speak to xxxxxx( the lady who works with me) and make sure you are alright, if you have any problems working on next week you can ring me up straight away…
Me: okay then, I really need to go now… see ya
Big boss: okay I will come to see you one day next week to talk to you
Me: okay bye
Big boss: bye and you have a nice day, rest yourself well this week, relax don’t think too much…
Me: okay

Hang up the phone and back to work… wanted to talk to my day shift manager but we were too busy… so end up busy with work, when we have some times in lunch time we actually talk about it… he said he is a bit disappointed with me because I am not negotiating and trying to be obedient again… but I got really no chance to really say no, sigh… I just need to talk to them face to face…

I am really undecided… yes it is pretty easy for me to leave and I am not really want to commit myself to this job in afternoon shift anymore… I see nothing to work there at all… sigh… wish me luck for next week and I hope things would be better soon…

I am a bit pissed off when they make it as a big huu haa… there is nothing really to huu haa about though… grrr… anyway got myself 3 classical cds :P… and got the collector’s edition of The Chronicle of Narnia…

Nothing really stuck in my head besides that stupid work haihz… I think I better blog it out and see what you all wanna critic about LOL…

Decision making

I am jual mahal-ing hahaha… y do I say so? Okay sit back and read my story of the day LOL… in around 9.30am, I think I should have call the afternoon shift manager to tell him I am resigning and so before I rang up my day shift manager start making a script for me to talk to them LOL… but I just want to tell them the truth…

The conversation went like this:
Me: hi good morning can I speak to xxxxx please?
Someone: may I know who is on the line?
Me: Joey
Xxxxx: hi Joey how are you?
Me: hi xxxxx I am very good! (sarcastic voice la LOL)
Xxxxx: that’s good, so what’s up?
Me: errr, I’ve decided to resign from there…
Xxxxx: where? Here?
Me: yeap
Xxxxx: hmm… so when is your last day?
Me: last Friday
Xxxxx: so you are not coming back anymore? but you need to ring the big boss to let him know
Me: okay I will
Xxxxx: okay
Me: see you

Hang up…..

After few minutes

Me: good morning xxxxxxx Joey speaking how can I help you?
Xxxxx: hi Joey it’s me xxxxx
Me: what can I help you xxxxx?
Xxxxx: can I know what is the reason u resigning?
Me: hmmm u really want to know?
Xxxxx: yeah
Me: okay, (then I told the reasons to him and bla bla bla)
Xxxxx: so you really consider to quit?
Me: yes, I’ve think over the weekend I think I better stop thinking to stressed myself up
Xxxxx: I think you are a good worker to me and I really hope you will come back… if I offer you some better conditions would you consider to come back?
Me: like? But it depends
Xxxxx: like (start making all the better offer to me)
Me: hmmm… well sounds interesting but I would like to think about it
Xxxxx: so how long u gonna take?
Me: obviously I am not going back in this week?
Xxxxx: why is that?
Me: I need to give myself a break, it’s been working so long for 2 shifts and now feel disappointed and heart broken… I think I better rest myself well…
Xxxxx: okay then, how bout finalize the answer in Friday?
Me: hmmm okay…
Xxxxx: I really hope you would come back… if you are not I am happy to be your verbal reference, I think you are good…
Me: okay then, but no thanks
Xxxxx: hmmm… I think you really need to take a deep breath before you start thinking
Me: alright then, xxxxx I really need to go now I have few functions to be ready… talk to you soon
Xxxxx: okay you take care and have a good one… awaiting for a positive answer from u…
Me: okay bye

Hang up straight away and gone back to work

I was keep thinking if I should go back to work there, but I think I am still young to explore… instead of working in the same place that not worthy to stay I am thinking to explore to somewhere that I can learn more things, know more people and stuffs… not sure what I can do though…

If you pass by my blog before Friday please give me an idea? Maybe I would left out anything that you think of? Tenkiu bery muchie :P

After dinner

Just back dinner with Kevin and Julie… talking about each other life… nothing really special… initially we want to go for Chinese food but end up we went for Japanese food… had few variety of food…

Everyone tried to avoid the relationship conversation because Kevin is facing the problem while Julie having the cold war with her boyfriend… we chatted a lot… after dinner we went to have some desserts and few drinks…

It’s been sometimes since I saw they last… and this is a nice catch up with them sharing all the info and stuffs… there goes my few hours with them… before time to meet them I was thinking how am I going to talk to Kevin? And was being so worried… but things go natural and we talk like usual… phew…

Don’t know why whenever I sit in his car, I would have strong feel towards song I heard… maybe whenever I am with him we can talk personally on how we feel, how we think of something and stuffs… sigh…

Well going off to bed soon as I still have to work for another 3 days…

Anzac day today

Today is Anzac day, so am having 1 day off from work… not bad wei… getting pay and no need to go to work hehe… so I am suppose to update hat happened yesterday also… as usual went to work since 4.45 am… then left the workplace around 2.30pm… met colleague’s son in North Melbourne for lunch in Footscray

It was my colleague’s birthday so it was suppose to be a surprise to her, but we crap it up hahaha… and we did went for lunch as usual and bought a cake for her as well… I have my chili beef noodles soup as usual… after lunch Ben left to work and I went to the city for Brunetti… the nice cake shop…

Was freezing yesterday so went home right after that… passed by Bourke st and grab some wicked wings home as well… I had the chicken wings once I reached home, somebody press on the door bell and I went to answered the door… it was the sales person from AAPT… a phone company… it was a bit embarrassing because I was biting my chicken on my hand when I open the door… she gone “errr” and I went “errr” and I hide my chicken wings behind me LOL…

Came in room, watched one Japanese movie, hen I am about to go to bed, Bernie rang me and I didn’t talk much because is feeling tired… when I online jie introduce Justin to me… hmmm yeah I found his blog is creative… especially the one like read in between the line and clean shave…

Dreamt of Ian last night again… accidentally… as in he came in my dream out of sudden… it’s been sometimes since he came in my dream hehehe…. The last time was the nightmare… which is considers the first time to have nightmare with him in it…

Spoke to my diary this morning… am happy for him also… he keep saying my crystal is batu :S… and I keep stressing my crystal is crystal not batu and keep repeating batu is something u paint on it… LOL… he is just being cheeky when I talk about my crystal :S… had fun with him and he taught me to purified my crystal so it can gives me power hahaha… I know I do sound silly in believing in crystal’s power… but y not? Hahaha…

Hmmm I think I should concentrate in my paper work for now and will be back blogging when I have my time to do so… tata for now…

That's all you are

Yesterday I couldn't say this
Yesterday I would have said yes
I'm happy you've changed your mind
It's all about me this time

Yesterday I wouldn't let up
You got me so messed up
You were so special
I was walkin' on eggshells

Now you're just
Gum on the sole of my shoe
Flat on the back of my car
Stain on the front of my shirt
That's all you are
Rain not a cloud in the sky
A grain of sand in my eye

It's a little too late for sorry
So don't be layin' it on me
Taking it all for granted
You've taken all your chances
Don't make no difference
I've come to my senses

Now you're just
Gum on the sole of my shoe
Flat on the back of my car
Stain on the front of my shirt
That's all you are
Rain not a cloud in the sky
A grain of sand in my eye
You're like a hole in my heart
That's all you are

And you can't go back
You can't go on
You can't break down
No you're way too strong

Guess you weren't so special
Why couldn't I tell?

Now you're just
Gum on the sole of my shoe
Flat on the back of my car
Stain on the front of my shirt
That's all you are
Rain not a cloud in the sky
A grain of sand in my eye
That's all you are

Like no right turn on red
You're just no good for my head
You're like a busted guitar
That's all you are
Name on the tip of my tongue
Ashamed for what you have done
You're like a hole in my heart
That's all you are