Wednesday to Friday

Time to blog again… hello everyone… another 5 days will be Chinese New Year lor… how was the preparation? Hmmm first of all I would like to wish you all have a well prepared and Happy Chinese New year…

Hmm… what happened in 2nd February… that day was a terrible day for me, as I was busy and I need to go to the bank to settle some payment, besides got a bad news about Alfie… he passed away out of sudden without any reasons… he is 21 years old only but he left us to god… sobs sobs… missing him now… he is one of the friend who jokes a lot… he will always entertain me… he is a very busy person yet he spares his time for me… sigh… fie, rest in peace…

In that night, Ian went online to IRC… even is only 3 minutes, but I am happy to see him online, I don’t know why… whatever it is… I care! This would be the answer when you will ask who cares….

In 3rd of February was a plain day for me… I was having a zombie life… but whatever happened is all in my dream… I can’t exactly remember the whole dream but my dream came true… I got what I want… woke up and came online before I went out and I saw my sisters online... was chatting with them then I went to the bank to withdrawal money… I don’t know why am I withdrawal so much… I’ve withdrawal 3500 dollar… but finished by today LOL… anyway, I am not doing any shopping besides storing some foods… then I came home and was like talking without the brain… :x… is like being blur for whole day.. got myself a break in yesterday and went to bed early…

Then got up in this morning, was waken by the house owner as he was cleaning the house… the noises had woke me up… then I got myself prepared and went to the bank to do some banking, went to pay my phone bills… take my own sweet times to have lunch, meet Joey in 1:30pm, was thinking to watch Alfie in 410pm… then went to arcade to play the drum… hehe… my drum skills not bad.. got grade A for the game kekeke… anyway, after the arcade went to grab some medicine and then went to Crown casino… when we reached there only I realized that I was looking in the last week’s scheduled, and I’ve missed out Alfie which showed in 2.40pm… :s…. since we are there I’ve choose to watch million dollar baby… not a bad movie though… they got 2 awards…

Winner of 2 Golden Globe® awards!
* Best Performance By An Actress In A Motion Picture - Drama: Hilary Swank
* Best Director - Motion Picture: Clint Eastwood

The movie is about In the wake of a painful estrangement from his daughter, boxing trainer Frankie Dunn (Clint Eastwood) has been unwilling to let himself get close to anyone for a very long time … but then Maggie Fitzgerald (Hilary Swank) walks into his gym.

Throughout a life of constant struggle, Maggie’s survived on raw talent, unshakeable focus and a tremendous force of will. But more than anything, she wants someone to believe in her.
The last thing Frankie needs is that kind of responsibility – let alone that kind of risk – but he is won over by Maggie’s sheer determination and begrudgingly agrees to take her on. In turns exasperating and inspiring each other, the two come to discover that they share a common spirit that transcends the pain and loss of their pasts. They also find in each other a sense of family they lost long ago. Yet they both face a battle that will demand more heart and courage than any they’ve ever known.
Hmm.. I quite like the movie… anyway, closer was a good movie that win 2 awards too. Winner of 2 Golden Globe® awards!
* Best Performance By An Actress In A Supporting Role In A Motion Picture: Natalie Portman
* Best Performance By An Actor In A Supporting Role In A Motion Picture: Clive Owen
Hehe… watched 2 good movies in this two weeks… then came home and had my big mac value meal… and got my room vacuum… and just got myself finished cleaning my room… so spare sometimes in typing this blog… nothing much happened… but seen some unhappy things in life today though… will type out later as I don’t feel like eating but I got to eat again :s…. gone now…

Please tell me I'm dreaming

Life is short… yes its short… Fie had left us to the other world… far away from us… sigh… Fie is one of my friends that I know for few years… tell me is not true… tell me I’m dreaming…

Just got to chat with him few days back… he did lots of planning… he told me what he is going to do… tell me he is alive… tell me please…

Why… why…. Why is that happened to him? Why? Sigh….

My condolences to Fie… my dearest friend…

First day of February 2005

Today suppose to bring in money for the lawyer but I went out without bring the bank card… -.- end up went to see the lawyer and get the account number so I can bank to him tomorrow…

Went to the bank but end up turn back because of being forgetful :S… anyway… is good so I can go out again tomorrow kekeke….

Then I’ve bought lots of food back because Joey and Jason will be coming over for dinner and to avoid me cooking with my flu is better for me to grab something from the restaurant…

Then reach home around 430pm… came online after that, and just crapping with people on the net, after that Uj and SoniC asked to play netbig 2 and I start collecting people to play the game and send the file to them so we can play the game…

After collecting people I’ve played in 2 tables as there are 2 different groups of people wanna play the game… I’ve closed the game after I played for 3 games… because I was blur and tired… planned to go to bed… but my flu causing me trouble to breath…

Then I was online helping my ex classmate to find some researches… and finally I had continue the netbig2 with friends… after that was doing the reports again… around 830pm, Joey and Jason was here and we had our dinner in the living hall and had some chats…

Came back my room around 930pm, then got myself chat with my buddies… talking about all memories we had… and I missed the time we had… crying all over like a baby… anyway I am happy there are still here for me… thanks a lot buddies…

Last night couldn’t sleep as I thought I had made Pat angry… anyway, he told me it was alright… thanks Blue for the songs you had sent to me… thanks for that, I am listening them now…

Today is already 2 months I had broke up with Ian… sigh… not going to say anything about him now… feeling tired….

I think that’s all for today… will update again if I left out anything later… ta ta for now…

Last day of January 2005

Nothing much happen today as just going through a normal day… woke up in the morning by Joey as he asked me to go shopping with him, we went to Chadstone to buy some stuffs then I requested to come home as I am feeling tired….

When I online this morning saw Ian’s nick wonder if he din work today… anyway wish he have a good day…

Today was quite happy as I’ve a chat with the buddy that refuses to talk to me for over 3 weeks… and finally he is talking to me!!! :P… I am happy with it as he is one of the important people in my life…

Besides that, I’ve got myself a 3 in 1 meal LOL… been busy since morning and had forgotten about my meals… anyway… got myself some salads and grilled chicken wings… is just a tasty and nice one… lime and coriander leaf kakaka… I love it man…

After all I am just chatting and doing reports for the whole day… so there u go, an update about me for today… and once again… stupid 988 chatters had flooded my.fm again sigh…

I guess bubble^girl is dead from IRC :)…. Anyway… that is a nick that I love the most and bring me lots of memories… besides I would not want anyone else to own the nick…

What is the Life I am going through

Today is a tiring Sunday for me… woke up in 730am, gone to have my dim sum breakfast with Joey, Laco and Jason… then had a window shopping in the city, when we were in Swanston St, Joey had bought me a necklace without letting me know, that is the necklace that I stare for few seconds because is very unique…

After the window shopping had come home for some rest and get some work to do… when I login to IRC, there are people flooding in era and so I got Kambing to kick the flooder, unfortunately, we got to know the channel dropped and then try to get all channels back to track… anyway, after some hard works… everything back to normal… we just can’t do anything besides all the important people around…

After getting everything done, my line was lag and I went offline to go out… was planning to go out alone, but met Joey near the Yarra River… I wasn’t in good mood actually and trying to get sometimes to think and consider things…

Am I supposed to go for further studies? I am feeling tired of thinking… maybe because I had nightmare last night… anyway, after we sit at the river side for a while I asked him to leave me alone… but he insisted to keep me company… I throw my tantrum at him; this is the first time I being so fierce to him face to face… I know how he felt, but I just can’t help it… he didn’t left, but keeping silent, I can see he wasn’t happy and I cried… after that, we didn’t said a word and I walked from Crown casino to my house…

Once I came home, I’ve lock myself in the room and start to make myself occupy… sigh… when I login IRC got to see lamers around… first got those 988 chatters came in to promote their chat room then go the guy who loves to play mind game with me come and annoy me again… sigh…

Anyway there goes my Sunday and I am now facing some lamers in #my.fm again… got to go now as I am a bit blank now… is like hurting people without any reasons… sigh…

Happy Chinese New Year

Yay!! Chinese New year is just around the corner… 10 more days!!! How was the preparation for your Chinese New Year? Anyway I am here to wish you all have a Happy Chinese New Year! Gong Xi Fa Cai!

Wish you all will have a happy and prosperous Chinese New Year, last but not least wishing you all a healthy, wealthy, and properrous Chinese New Year…

For those who are studying, Good luck and all the best for the studies…

For those who are working, wish you will have a good time in working days, and hopefully will be promote to a higher position in the company…

For those who are single, wish you will find your soul mate and life companion soon…

For those who are already married, first of all gong xi fa cai, second of all where is my ang pao? :P anyway… wish you will have a happy marriage life, and get a baby and complete family as soon as possible…

There goes all my wishes…. Once again Happy Chinese New Year, Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!

Good Luck in studies

Good Luck in study 

Get what you wish

Get what you want 

Be safe whereever you are 

Good luck in love life

Good Luck in love life 

Feel peace all the time

Feel peace all the time 

Be healthy all the time

Be healthy all the time 

Everything goes right

Everything are fine 

Gets richer

Gets richer 

A quiet Saturday

Good morning my friends… am here to write my blog again… yesterday is just a very quiet day of mine…

After I woke up in the morning, I went out to walk on the beach to have a walk, when I am home, Laco and Jason are chatting in the living room… then I took my shower and we went to walk along the Yarra river to the city and then we sit at the river side for chatting… I was looking at the river without really concentrating in the conversation…

When I was there, was thinking to jump into the river and kill myself… but I realized, it is just being irresponsible towards everyone if I commit suicide like this… my mind went blank and I never told Laco and Jason about this…

Then we came home and there you go, spending the rest of my day writing reports and get my things done… then me and Laco went to Coles and somewhere near by to grab some food for dinner, got myself some fried chicken with chips, and some salads as well… and I had spend the whole day to download some songs as well as the soundtrack of The Phantom of the Opera… as you can see from the last 2 posts, Learn to be lonely is the song they play at the end of the movie and think of me is the part where Christine was helped by the Phantom of the Opera…

In around 1230am, Joey, Jason, Cherry and Rick was here for drinking session again… I am not really feeling well and I got myself a glass of red wine… then I came into my room as I feel tired after that…

I’ve created a play list of all the soundtracks from The Phantom of the Opera, and end up I had a nightmare from all the sound effects and the rhyme of those songs… I can’t remember well what dream I had, but I just can’t sleep well… when I woke up just now I’ve repeating Think of me and Learn to be lonely… sigh…

Anyway end of this post now… take care friends… will update again in tonight :) tata for now…

Think of me

Think of me, think of me fondly, when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while - please promise me you'll try.

When you find that, once again, you long to take your heart back
and be free - if you ever find a moment
spare a thought for me ...

We never said our love was evergreen, or as unchanging
as the sea - but if you can still remember,
stop and think of me ...


Think of all the things we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things which might have been ...

Think of me, think of me waking, silent and resigned.

Imagine me, trying too hard to put you from my mind.

Recall those days, look back on all those times,
think of the things we'll never do - there will never be
a day, when I won't think of you ...

We never said our love was evergreen, or as unchanging
as the sea - but please promise me, that sometimes, you will think of me!

* this is one of the best track I love the most... I cried in her performance and I've cried when I listened just now... this is one of the track from The Phantom Of The Opera where Christine got to show her talent through this song... her first performance after all...

Learn to be lonely

Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness
Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion
Ever dreamed out in the world
There were arms to hold you?
You've always known
Your heart was on its own
So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone
Learn to be lonely
Life can be lived
Life can be loved
Alone.

What east and west horoscope say for 2005

Always something of a freedom fighter, with liberating Uranus in your sign along with the articulate planet of communication, Mercury, you are a powerful spokesperson for freedom and justice. You believe in the importance of equitable public policy, as much as the power of the individual. You are likely to be called at least one humanitarian mission in your lifetime; likely many more than one. Sagittarius is said to be especially suited for teaching and law. A big-picture thinker, you tend to be interested in humanity as a whole, history and the social sciences in general. You are also likely to be concerned about the environment, seeing the overview as you do.

A serious but optimistic Capricorn warms your heart and points you toward lucrative opportunities. An independent Aquarius stimulates your thinking and intrigues you into pursuing them until you are caught. Your greatest challenge is to keep your methods as above-board as your motives, and your greatest strength is your sense of mission.

You are more than just an impassioned Don Quixote tilting at windmills, though. In addition to your rousing enthusiasm for a good cause, you are also a keen strategist, patient to work behind the scenes with focused intent until your opportunity presents itself. You are also not above secret tactics and plots. In the end, only you can say whether your ends justify your means, and vice versa.

A stupid mind gme

Sigh.. I hate playing mind games with anyone… Is been quite sometimes to have a guy who online and playing mind game with me… I have no idea who is that… I wish I would know….

He used to come online and ask for my apology and told me that he is sorry for hurting me before… I tried to ask him a lot of times who is him, but the weird thing is he will just go offline without saying a word when I ask who is him….

Tonight he is online again, he said hi to me and I replied a hi to him, then I asked who is him but he just replied me, “you’re mine be4” then I ask what does he mean? He didn’t answer me further and I asked again but he left me a message Silent is not mean im not luv u….

I hate this feeling so much… anyway I think I should go to rest… I can’t cope with my feelings now…